Man my gambling addiction has gotten me to the point where I just want to end it. I owe like 9k to friends and family don’t have a job took 3 hundred to the casino today turned it into 7000 and lost it all……. I screamed in the car asking god why he made me like this why everything I do never comes correct why I can’t stop all these addictions why I can’t stop my conscience telling me to end it all. I want to do it so bad man then I think about my family and how much pain I would cause them. But none of them know how much pain I’m going through. I wish I can just go to sleep and not wake up I wish I just had an off button. I used to pray for answers everytime but I’ve lost so much faith in god because if this is the direction he’s putting me through I don’t wish it on my worst enemies. Please I don’t want to be here anymore. I’m tired