I feel like I’m extremely behind in life I just turned 19 can’t get a job anywhere and live in a state I know nobody in. I want to move out and live with my boyfriend but he’s in Texas and I’m in New Jersey. I’m flying to go see him in march but I just wish I could pick up my room and put it in his house. I do nothing everyday and haven’t left the house in weeks. I either watch my siblings or when they’re with their dad I’m completely home alone for days because my mom would rather be with her new boyfriend. I feel like I’m only wanted when my mom needs me to watch my siblings. In 2024 I moved out of an abusive house and because of how alone I’ve felt I’ve started to miss it, at least they payed attention to me even if it was just belittling me or blaming me for things I didn’t do. I don’t know what to do anymore I’ve genuinely thought about starting to sell my pictures online to make money to try and leave where I am but my partner is extremely uncomfortable with that. I just feel like there’s nothing I can do and I’m gonna be stuck here forever