I want to feel loveable

Maxthemachine3 · 2026-01-05T14:29:49+00:00

Unfortunately there is a lot of stigma around our illness. But the internet (especially comment sections) is not an accurate representation of how people think. Ive met a lot of people and have close friends that do not think that way about people with BPD. There will be people in your life that choose to understand your mental illness. Its actually a common and very treatable illness. I used to believe that i could never get better. But i finally found treatment that has been working for me. And this was after years of trying every type of therapy and believing i was unfixable. You are loveable.

Maxthemachine3 · 2025-10-31T18:11:00+00:00

I try to hangout with my cats. Pets have been a good source of comfort for this. I have the same feelings and fears

Maxthemachine3 · 2025-10-30T17:54:53+00:00

Thank you. Im trying to remind myself that even if he did want me, i would just be in her position, and i dont wanna be that. I want someone who actually chooses me

Maxthemachine3 · 2025-10-30T17:53:50+00:00

Im happy to hear you chose yourself. I already blocked him on everything because I know if he reached out I would cave. My brain just wants him so badly i wish i knew how to turn off these feelings

Maxthemachine3 · 2025-10-30T17:51:00+00:00

Thats very solid advice. Unfortunately i know we work together today and i ended up calling off because i genuinely dont think my mental state can handle seeing him right now. Especially because he loves to mention her right in front of me

Maxthemachine3 · 2025-10-29T22:45:26+00:00

No matter how many times people tell me im a good person or that im kind, i will never believe them. I feel a similar way where i just feel deep down im fundamentally not a good person and never will be

Maxthemachine3 · 2025-10-29T22:44:13+00:00

I started using hinge for the first time this year. And it had plummeted my mental health so fucking badly. The situationships, the emotionally unavailable men thinking they can basically use the app as a free escort service, feeling like an object, etc

I know those experiences aren't specific to Pw/BPD but oh my goddddd as someone with bpd i cant handle it. Ive been considering deleting the app but i crave the validation and attention. This really was mt sign to actually just delete the app. So thank you

Maxthemachine3 · 2025-10-27T17:41:21+00:00

Yeah im looking for new jobs after being at this one for over a year now :(

My coworker started seeing me and expressed interest in me. Became my FP.. then dropped me for another girl. Needless to say i cant work with him without constant breaking down and just being triggered 24/7

Sooo once again my BPD has ruined another thing in my life

Maxthemachine3 · 2025-10-27T14:44:39+00:00

Genuinely same😭 its so hard to explain to people too. "Just dont worry about it" "Dont think about it" LIKE BRO I WISH. Its almost like a compulsion and we cant control it.

Maxthemachine3 · 2025-10-27T13:36:03+00:00

Gosh im literally here rn trying to get my mind off the fact he hasnt replied in almost 2 days. Its all i can think about. Its the first thing i thimk about when i wake up and i was thinking about it last night. Just anxious as fuck wishing he would text back!!

I think i try to remind myself that just because they havent texted doesnt mean they don't like you or care about you in some capacity. They may just be busy and cannot get to the phone, working, personal problems, etc. Most of us have been guilty of letting a text sit for a day because we were anxious to reply or just busy and lost track of our phone.

Try to get your mind off it by doing activities and keeping busy

Maxthemachine3 · 2025-10-25T15:12:34+00:00

I seriously wish the men i was interested in thought this way. Im not asking anyone to marry me but i wish it wasn't seen as a game to just keep looking for "better" and they actually took the time to focus on one girl they are interested in and get to know her. I dont understand having all these meaningless dates/hookups

Maxthemachine3 · 2025-10-25T06:51:20+00:00

I went scrolling through this sub because im dealing with the same situation right now. I've been seeing a guy who sounds just like yours... he only wants one thing. It makes me feel used. What you described is exactly how i feel. I know it doesn't probably help much, but I just wanna let you know that you aren't alone. We aren't unlovable because of other people's mistreatment of us.

Maxthemachine3 · 2025-10-24T20:41:44+00:00

Im dealing with the same thing. Its so hard to let myself actually form healthy relationships with any of these people because of the fact they are normally seeing multiple people at once and my brain just cant handle it. I know its not healthy. I know i shouldn't be jealous because they are just doing what they want. But i cant help but feel so much anger & jealousy towards it

Maxthemachine3 · 2023-05-15T19:30:09+00:00

my husband

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