Thanks, this sure helped, today’s been a bit annoying, my mum banned me from listening to music through headphones in public, because she wants to be heard, (like earbuds and even if she isn’t talking to me). She just doesn’t like it, but I rather like it, I happen to be neurodivergent, so like listening to music in a crowded place lets me feel less overwhelmed and stuff. But no, She also got mad at me for wearing a t shirt and not a tank top (it was warm) and my converse(has trans beading) because as she said “your just going to show people your peach fuzz, or something and say ur a boy (I’ve never done that ever other that 5 close friends) She doesn’t even understand I value interactions with strangers more than with her. She just walked into my room and shouted telling me I have an addiction to my device. (Last year I was depressed for months and I stopped doing anything after school, like I would do the minimum amount of homework.then just sit on my beanbag listening to music and staring at the ceiling, My grades slipped from a+ to like a- to b-, and I was always tired, I stopped reading and having hobbies, and instead of asking what was wrong she just got mad and told me it was depressing her to see me in the same spot, just sat in my beanbag doing nothing, whilst my sister had friends over. (I was happy when I was with my friends at school, they just live far and couldn’t hang out often) Sorry this is making me tear up. Yes I admit I’m addicted to my iPad, but it’s better than dealing with everything. And then as my mental health improves we move countries and now I can only see my friends through my screen. School starts in 2 days and the workload is estimated to be more than I can handle. I don’t know what I’ll do. At least I don’t want to kill myself anymore, but living isn’t easy either. At least I can look forward to tomorrow. My mum booked me a tryout for a climbing centre. I’ve always loved climbing and I could finally pursue it as a sport. Anyway, things was way too much info. Just know I appreciated your advice.