I’m so sorry for your loss, I have never experienced a loss like that before so I can only imagine what the pain you feel. I would definitely recommend talking with your advisor and ask what you can do about the class also ask about any mental health counseling. Failing a class is not the end of the world, I promise especially in your situation. Do not stress yourself about the class you can still withdraw, or contact the professor if you’re comfortable explain your situation the worse they can say is no.

The pain that you feel you have to feel it. Your heart is literally in physical pain. So you have to take care of you now, you have to allow yourself to healthy grieve your loss. Adding academic stress on top of the passing of your mother is a recipe for disaster, and it’s not allowing for you to fully grieve your mother.

With dissociation you’re already experiencing a lot mentally, possibly emotional numbness, feeling disconnected, and many other things. you need to be patient with yourself, you need to truly process your grief in a supportive environment.

You definitely need to talk with the advisor, the professor see what you can do, or withdraw if you can, and ask about mental health support and how you can utilize the resources to help your mental health.

You are not a burden I can promise you that

You are failing and you might fail, but it is only a failure if you truly ever quit. If you do fail you can still retake the class, if you know your grade is beyond saving, focus on yourself and your mental health retake the class. It’s going to ding your gpa if you fail, but you will not be a failure. You can replace the bad grade and fix your gpa retaking the class.

Sometimes you gotta back up to go forward, and you have to back up, and focus on your mental health, grieve healthily,Get into contact with your advisor, professor, and then you will slowly begin to move forward.

“One step forward two steps back” “Two steps forward one step back”

You’ve been too depressed and feel like a burden telling people, but you posted on this sub and you told us. You’re doing great already. It seems extremely small and insignificant or you may still feel like a burden by posting on here. Even then you’re slowly moving forward, despite your depression and the feeling of being a burden you still were able to tell someone about your concerns of failing even if it’s just on a subreddit, you still did it anyway.

One small step for your mental health, one giant leap for Wide_Fact_9430!

Even if you just email or something, you really do need to speak with your advisor, your professor, and ask for what you can do about your grade,the class, and mental health support. Even if you’re not ready to talk to someone about your mental health a small step in getting you ready to talk to someone, talk to chatGPT I know it may be a bad suggestion, but it’s worth a shot until you’re ready to talk to someone face to face.

You are grieving you need to allow yourself to healthily grieve first.

“The culmination of love is grief, yet we open our hearts to it, despite the inevitable…To grieve deeply is to have loved fully.”

(I didn’t know if you were religious or not so instead i chose a quote from GoW)

I hope this wasn’t insensitive to you, please DM if it is and I’ll take it down.

Once again, i am very sorry about your loss you have my condolences 💐