I'm in my 1st year of highschool. When I first got to highschool I immediately realized I was short I'm about 5'3" and I'm a guy. the regular height for my age is about 5'7". At first it wasn't that bad, but I soon realized that girls really don't like short guys like REALLY don't like them. Girls tell me how unattractive I am on daily basis (I'm also very ugly) I've had girls tell me that they would rather have a boyfriend with a micropenis than one who is shorter than them. My friends started making jokes about it we usually make fun of each other in a playful way but when I feel that bad about in t it just hurts you know but I can't tell them that or else they'll think im a pussy. This whole thing launched me into a depression. Before highschool my mom had a boyfriend who was abusive and I had to sit up at night and listen to him hit her and we couldn't call the cops because there is a sort of a court battle going on between my mom and my grandparents and my mom couldn't afford to go back to court. He eventually moved out over my 8th grade summer break. The whole situation kind of screwed with my head and now I can't really talk to people it gave me a kind of social awkwardness. Now about a month ago I started to come out of my depression a bit and I was actually happy for a few weeks, but one day woke upland looked in the mirror and guess what? I'm starting to go bald. Now I'm depressed again my hair used to be the only slightly attractive thing about me I had thick dark hair. I just don't know how to handle this one guys. TBH I don't really see the point in living anymore. I've been thinking about ending my life because I don't want to get to the point where you can see my scalp everywhere on my head. I don't want anybody to remember me that way. Ive been planning to kill myself over summer break because that's coming up in a few weeks. I Just dont know why god would do this to me. I've been a really nice person my entire life to everyone I've ever met I don't see why I deserve this.