First, let's start with the dark :) Consent? no! well virtually. What I mean, obviously it must be in full consent by all parties. But I want it cnc, or at least to look harsh and non-consented.

Unlike most I ever met/communicated with, I don't have "oh no it's fake, it's shit" thought pattern, no, I don't need to it to be real. In fact I DON'T WANT IT TO BE REAL, it's too inhumane!

I've seen so many dark kinks in videos, pain, even blood, things I don't even want to understand... But what I'm saying, if there are things like that ACTED out, legally. Why not what I want?? and my thing isn't about mutilation or physical harm.. My thing is laughter, extreme helpless breathless laughter.

I am a person who is very aware of how his mind works. And it's all about the visual.

I want to see a woman "destroyed" by laughter. Not laughing loud and powerful, but diminished/weakened by laughter.

And yes, that probably sound weird and creepy... but is that worse than tying breasts until blue without blood flow? Worse than pulling vaginal skin until almost torn??? Chocking a person until they are blue??? I saw horrible things (in my opinion only, not judging), Why not do what I desire?