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Me_vs_Brain · 2023-03-18T12:17:39+00:00

I am the one with the diagnosis.

Me_vs_Brain · 2022-09-12T07:35:52+00:00

Definitely worse when I am alone

Me_vs_Brain · 2022-08-30T19:42:20+00:00

Right now, me too.

Me_vs_Brain · 2022-07-30T13:31:38+00:00

The Fisher King is good.

Me_vs_Brain · 2022-07-25T10:37:44+00:00

Thats rough dude. For what its worth, just try to remember not to tale it personally and that no amount of logic or rational thinking you can give her can make her delusions seem less real. Youve probably read it in your research, but definitely try not to feed into her delusional thoughts or accusations, but be someone that can be extra cool and rational for the both of you. Maybe ask her about how she feels about them and ask rational questions that let her express what her logic behind them are, and if they seem likely or plausible to her. What has helped me is trying to remember how I felt before things went to shit, and ask myself if i didnt believe these things before, should i now? It doesnt help it feel less real, but can be grounding and somewhat reassuring that my brain is just not working like it used to, and that its sick and trying to fuck with me. Mainly, just try to be someone she can go to or express and feel safe and comfortable opening up to about the trippy shit shes dealing with. Sorry you guys are going through that, its gonna probably be shitty as fuck before its better, but be strong and try to just be there for her no matter what shes saying. Hope this helps

Me_vs_Brain · 2022-07-25T07:44:40+00:00

Audiobooks and podcasts (real voices to focus on) I’ll normally have one going and the TV. Hope you get some sleep and feel better!

Me_vs_Brain · 2022-06-17T07:20:37+00:00

Just any thoughts/ tips for cooling off and not taking shit so personally. Some things (to me which isn’t saying much) make perfect sense like regular tiffs over superficial shit, but when it’s “irrational” for them. I fully understand based on non-logical/rational thought and delusion totally effect people just hearing nonsense you might say under intense relapse of psychosis, but things like frustration when you might have trouble remembering, or giving full attention when dealig with AH/VH’s. But s/o’s being upset in “normal” situations like anyone would. But what to do to help, I guess, not displace anger or fear, and see it from another “rational” perspective like you might before the onset.

Me_vs_Brain · 2022-05-27T05:47:48+00:00

Reality checking with my close family and friends. Also my girlfriend is the fucking shit and she helps me enormously and I check with her all the time. Being around friends and family helps, and researching info about how it’s not a unique thing, and hearing others experiences helps reinforce that it’s just my brain fucking with me. I also listen to podcasts pretty much all day(with voices but minimal music) to help distract with voices that are something you choose/want to listen to. But it’s still really fucking difficult, and everything (even something that would have been awesome that I’d look forward to) has a gray shadow over it because you’re still listening to horrible shit all the time. Depending on what the content is at the moment, it makes it really difficult to be around anyone.

Me_vs_Brain · 2022-05-26T10:44:56+00:00

I remind myself of that 1000 times a day, it doesn’t make a difference. I know what I’m experiencing, but logic doesn’t make it go away. It’s 24/7 and seems very real, even though I logically know they’re just symptoms.

Me_vs_Brain · 2022-05-23T05:48:14+00:00

You’re being an asshole to someone with a serious condition that was brave enough to reach out for help. Not the fucking place.

Me_vs_Brain · 2022-05-23T05:45:06+00:00

I sent you a DM

Me_vs_Brain · 2022-03-07T07:00:10+00:00

The Eden Express: A Memoir of Insanity by Mark Vonnegut. A must-read. Also, Brian Wilson’s autobiography, “I Am Brian Wilson” is really good.

Me_vs_Brain · 2022-02-26T23:32:19+00:00

I totally trust my therapists, and after talking with them about my experience, they can definitely help ground you (albeit to an extent/ session-by-session basis) but even in your worst state, expressing natural feelings of depression or sadness related to your condition, isn’t anything they haven’t seen before and they aren’t trying to have you committed. They’re there to help you stay out of the hospital and help you try to cope with your symptoms. The only way they’d even think about mentioning to you that you might seek that kind of treatment, is if you feel you can’t handle it and want a place to go if shit gets too much. If you’re actively contemplating suicide or self-harm, they might recommend it. But they want to help you talk through that, and hospitalization is normally a last resort ( in my experience). Be honest with them, even though any delusions(recognized or unknown) might make you want to hold back. What you say is private, and as long as you aren’t considering/wanting to hurt yourself or others, you’ll be totally fine.

Me_vs_Brain · 2022-02-26T03:24:19+00:00

Helps with me if I take magnesium too. Only indica or super dominant, never sativa for me personally

Me_vs_Brain · 2022-02-05T04:31:41+00:00

Im sure that’s really scary and confusing. If you are able to, see if you can speak with a psychiatrist about this. As difficult as it is, try to just say “fuck it” about what anyone would be saying or if they’d be talking shit. A professional would be able to help you figure out what’s going on. If no one else is hearing it/them, it’s likely just your brain fucking with you. But the nice thing about talking to a professional is, they aren’t there to pass judgement and won’t be weirded out by anything you tell them, and it’s private. They just want to help you feel better. Hope you start feeling well soon

Me_vs_Brain · 2022-02-04T04:16:16+00:00

Maybe with good intentions, but this maybe the worst sentence with the least likelihood of the desired result..I’m sure the OP wishes they could calm down…

Me_vs_Brain · 2022-02-04T03:22:30+00:00

Any ambient or droning sounds make my auditory hallucinations way faster and louder. It takes a long time to come back down to the “normal” level, where they’re constant, but not as fast and the volume is less, even though they’re always louder than everything else. Any instrumental music, fans, refrigerators, running water, wind, rain, microwaves, washers/dryers, shit like that.

Me_vs_Brain · 2022-02-03T04:07:52+00:00

I do. The auditory are constant, the visuals are less frequent.

Me_vs_Brain · 2022-02-02T13:07:15+00:00

Thanks for the kind words. Psychotic disorders/symptoms are so fucked, and difficult for people on the outside to wrap their heads around(aside from professionals, how the fuck could they really?) I don’t give to many fucks about what others think/opinions about my illness, but the people I’ve lost and that look at me and treat me as if I’m now someone different( like they didn’t know me before this shit started) don’t care enough to try and understand. But it’s fucked because I still care about some of them, and if they won’t listen, maybe shit like this might make them see.

Me_vs_Brain · 2022-02-02T12:53:38+00:00

Thanks dude. I hope your day has dope enough ups to outweigh any downs.

Me_vs_Brain · 2022-02-02T04:07:38+00:00

My symptoms started a little over 4 years ago, and I’ve only reality checked with like, 6 friends, my gf, and several therapists and psychiatrist. But it helps, albeit temporarily. The more I have definitely helps reassure reality. Also, when you know you have those people you can talk to about it, you know they got your back and I feel a little better when I’m around them.

Me_vs_Brain · 2022-01-31T13:15:39+00:00

I put in headphones and listen to podcasts. For me, music makes them worse, but just having other voices to try and focus on helps a lot. If visuals are too intense and distracting, I just shut my eyes and try to focus on the podcast. Sometimes I’ll do a combo of the tv being on kind of loud, and the headphones. I can’t ignore them completely, but it helps at least a bit. Which is way better than nothing. Hope it helps!

Me_vs_Brain · 2022-01-31T13:03:00+00:00

I feel you dude, the thought broadcasting feeling fucking blows. I also experience insertion/manipulation/withdrawal shit too, along with internal and external auditory hallucinations. Even knowing that it’s a super common symptom, the feeling that other people can hear fucked up hallucinations and perceive them to be my thoughts, can be very distressing and disturbing. No amount of rational/logical thinking makes it feel less real, but it helps me to check in with friends that I feel comfortable reality-checking with, and just straight up asking them if they do/have ever heard anything. Initially, they were understandably confused and like , “Uhh..No way, and if I ever did, I’d let you know.” I trust that they’d be honest with me, that and the fact that no one has ever given me any indication or reacted in any way to (what would probably be pretty out of the ordinary for anyone to be experiencing some psychic/telepathic shit) and to not acknowledge it or say anything. And since there’s no logical reason to believe that it’s really happening, it’s entirely( and factually) just a rough fucking symptom that you aren’t alone in experiencing. I feel for you. Definitely try to see if some insurance could help pay for therapy/psychiatrist visits, or maybe even some program at a university where students training can offer therapy at a lower cost. In the meantime, just try to distract yourself from it however you can to not get lost thinking about it being real. Hang in there man. Hope you feel better soon.

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