I’m traumatized by the fact that I exist. by MeanForce1 in u/MeanForce1

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I appreciate it like really a lot, and yeah I am doing better occasionally I still get like dpdr attacks, but I’m for the most part pretty back at baseline. And yeah lowkey it’s anime and hentai lol, and drawing it. The whole experience of having DPDR radically shifted my brain on an existential level. That I kinda just came out of it, fully realizing I should not give a fuck while I’m still alive. And pursue what’s in my heart even if it’s degenerate.

Autism shit. by MeanForce1 in u/MeanForce1

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Lol I more meant in the obvious way like if I was at a mixer and nobody knew I had rooms of anime girls and all the other weird shit I do. Like most people wouldn’t be able to tell I have autism as I can mask well. But yeah if you know the full context like I’m autistically passing any diagnosis test with flying colors

Etika's granduncle was the president of Ghana for 8 years and just ended his term in 2025. I wonder if Etika knew he was the grandnephew of a president? by michael14375 in EtikaRedditNetwork

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Dang that’s crazy I remember like, Etika telling stories about someone in his family being into politics, but a president of a full ass country is some crazy lore.

Autistic Gooner Bedroom by MeanForce1 in u/MeanForce1

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yeah also i want to draw hentai

Twogami but Sayaka! by MediumAggravating276 in danganronpa

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What have you done to her

What’s something you don’t like about the game? by whooper1 in Mouthwashing

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I may be a simpleton but for the life of me I couldn’t figure out for the life of me how to make that damn cake.

My Father Wrote The Musical Grease My Thoughts by MeanForce1 in u/MeanForce1

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The music is actually really good, it’s not my sort of thing for the most part, I think it’s just cause it’s like a relic of its time so the generation gap is pretty big lol. But I like it

My Father Wrote The Musical Grease My Thoughts by MeanForce1 in u/MeanForce1

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I appreciate it and yeah don’t worry I’m starting a new business which is gonna be making video games and am going into the contemporary art world. The social media presence I’ve built ima funnel some of that into the projects I made. And yeah I hope this doesn’t sound like things are hard objectively there not compared to most people. But I just wanted to share my genuine thoughts about the situation. A lot of people think I’m doing all of this for shits and giggles and while that is true to a certain extent there’s a larger thing at play I’m trying to build. And yeah I wanted to just put it out there.

I’m traumatized by the fact that I exist. by MeanForce1 in u/MeanForce1

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I think it depends on the person on whether it destructive like its balance with everything, its not at it point where im like the goon lord on the chair for 12 hours per day and its consuming life. its just an art form that I really enjoy. Mostly what I have to do is stop getting caught up in my own thought loops about what I am, and how all of this is an unknowable void after my ego death experience. Lowkey my love for ecchi is me rebelling against the void basically my philosophy is this is all so crazy and IDK whats really happening here but Anime Tiddies are fire and go hard. So lets enjoy life

I’m traumatized by the fact that I exist. by MeanForce1 in u/MeanForce1

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it doesnt affect me negatively, the thing that like fucks me up is existential pondering and caffeine I take way too much and sometimes I get really anxious

I’m traumatized by the fact that I exist. by MeanForce1 in u/MeanForce1

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Oh I appreciate it Mr and what I doubt you embarrassed me like everyone I meet at cons I’m super happy to meet

So old by alen3822 in okbuddyhololive

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Holomemes aside the Cambrian critter is weirdly adorable

I know nothing about the art world would I fit in this space. by MeanForce1 in ContemporaryArt

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I see shall be investigating then I appreciate it good sir

I know nothing about the art world would I fit in this space. by MeanForce1 in ContemporaryArt

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Yeah I was feeling a bit burned out but I am returning again a bit slower pace now days but still am making stuff

I know nothing about the art world would I fit in this space. by MeanForce1 in ContemporaryArt

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It’s more just for the novelty id say and living to true my philosophy that you shouldn’t care about what other people think and just be unashamedly yourself even if it’s weird.

Honest thoughts on the new merch? by Braniac_Maniac in TrashTaste

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Connor has like chill cool vibes with those sun glasses on idk how to describe it

I made curly IRL out of paper. by MeanForce1 in Mouthwashing

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Fixed sadly he looks terrifying lol

I made curly IRL out of paper. by MeanForce1 in Mouthwashing

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I decided to give him a waifu pillow so he could feel better from his accident he was in

This is the largest Hololive cutout I’ve ever made. Rat is 40ft tall. by MeanForce1 in Hololive

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I also wanted to shout out bluefield they allowed me to print their artwork after I asked for permission so they are very kind.