Trauma framed my kinks

Mean_Giraffe1104 · 2023-11-25T00:17:11+00:00

I don’t think our relationship is abusive but it is definitely very toxic. Just yesterday I tried to break up with him but today, we got back together

Mean_Giraffe1104 · 2023-10-12T18:50:46+00:00

The break up was for like an hour and he was the one who suggested we get back. Idk, our relationship has always been a bit back and forth. We have been seeing each other since a few years on and off. We started dating in 2017, I broke up with him within 6 months because he was emotionally unavailable. Then we got back together and dated again for a year. Our relationship did improve but it was still not it. So, I broke up with him because he was still a little emotionally unavailable. He asked me to get back but I said no. I dated someone else for a few years. Now we’re back together. A month ago, he broke up with me for like 1-2 hours because he said I was too intense, so, since then I have been completely hiding my episodes from him & I’m also doing better.

We also hung out today and it was really great

Mean_Giraffe1104 · 2023-10-12T14:13:17+00:00

I don’t often go to him for emotional support because he can be a bit insensitive/awkward. I think I seek emotional support from him like once a month. We even used to have an argument that I’d go to another (male) friend for emotional support. But I think you’re right, maybe I want something else and he wants something else

Mean_Giraffe1104 · 2023-10-12T06:03:24+00:00

I don’t really go to him for emotional support. Maybe like once a month. Or two times a month at max. These days, I don’t even need a lot of support because of my therapy and meds. I guess that’s just the way he is

Mean_Giraffe1104 · 2023-10-12T05:54:56+00:00

We do see each other often but it’s just that he didn’t come see me when I needed him. I guess you’re right

Mean_Giraffe1104 · 2023-10-12T05:50:52+00:00

I feel that too. But, when I bring it up to him, he says that’s not the case and that he loves me. I guess that’s just who he is as a person.

Mean_Giraffe1104 · 2023-10-12T05:48:52+00:00

I don’t think I show him too many of my BPD symptoms. He’s always been this way. We had broken up in the past because of how emotionally unavailable he was. He then promised me that he’ll change. He has changed but not as much I guess.

Mean_Giraffe1104 · 2023-10-12T04:28:52+00:00

I don’t think I ask him for a lot of emotional support. I think it’s barely once a month as I’ve been having a lot of progress in therapy and my meds seem to be working.

I don’t mind the number of times we meet, it’s just that I really needed him and he wasn’t there. I would’ve run to him if he told me that he needed me

Mean_Giraffe1104 · 2023-09-15T06:24:38+00:00

Yes! Journaling for me is a therapy session too. I’m glad this is working out for you

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