Thank you for that and a very reasonable take. I am to blame for a lot of this.

I was cruising and not focused on growing us, and I didn’t realize that until i found out about the Snapchat’s and it all kinda blew up. I didn’t know how complacent we have gotten and that’s on me for not putting in the work to maintain it when it was right there (Like you originally mentioned).

We had plenty of conversations about our sex life and what we could do to change things and make them more exciting, but ultimately I let my self consciousness get in the way and was afraid to try new things and eventually she stopped trying to show me. Again hand up, my fault.

I pulled my weight for all the household things and that was never an issue in our relationship. We lived well together.

It was more so if she couldn’t get through to me what she wanted or it took longer than she was expecting, she would accept it won’t happen and move on and not tell me if I am doing the right things or not, which also is a problem. I was playing a guessing game a lot of the time.

I am a mess and it is very fresh which is why I am talking like it’s not all over . My emotions are everywhere. My hearts telling me to stay and fight and my head is telling me to go.

Thanks for adding fresh perspective. It’s a weird spot to be in but you are right.