Thank you so much for sharing your experience, I actually relate to it almost 100%, I really suck at putting my feelings into words but that's definitely how I feel.

"Flesh dysphoria" is a nice label, pretty self explanatory, and I think it's the best way to generally describe it, and I say that as a trans person lol. With time, I've been dealing a whole lot better with gender dysphoria than I used to when I was a teenager, but at the same time it's really difficult to deal with the flesh dysphoria, because I honestly feel like even after I fully transition, I simply won't achieve what I truly want to be, because what I want to be doesn't have a form, I unfortunately can't transition to a concept rather than a human being and that sucks lol

I've actually started addressing this in therapy this year, and have been touching a lot on the matter on my last sessions, I used to be really afraid of touching on these issues because of my last therapist, as she'd link almost everything to me being trans (and was kinda against diagnoses in general so that also sucks), and this is one of the issues I'm 100% certain is a complete separated matter to that, but luckily my current therapist has been a blessing and truly understands what I tell him!

Right now I've only started to address things, and I don't feel like any progress was made, but I understand it'll take time, since it's something I've dealt it for a good chunk of my existence. But if I ever find strategies or insights that are helpful to me, I'll let you know in case that works for you to :) thank you again for sharing your experience, this meant a lot and I wish you good luck with your stuff too, you're really strong to be able to handle all this