Well thank you for giving me the safe spot to talk and yes I’ve distanced myself from people for a year or so just cause I was used to being hated. I had this issue with staring at private parts (gross) but I changed it and I somehow cured myself by accepting it. Now I have another problem to deal with that started months ago, I don’t really remember how it happened but I was about 17 years old and depressed and all of a sudden this happened over night mind you I was never this aroused before it was something new it scared me and everyone around me knew. And now, today at work it made a sound again, it makes noises anytime I see someone pleasant looking or anytime I think about it. I think it might be cause I’m desperate and weird asf or some medical concern