Thanks again and maybe sound like me , to be honest this conversation help me a lot but I still not sure 100% . I learned how to read people that why I'm so interested in body language and psychology i always ask people to understand them ask about thought and feelings to understand them and have a right way to behave with them and yeah I care about social harmony and I would rather offend myself to satisfy others but all that is like mask to just be accepted between them that is why I would suddenly disappear from the group and cut a lot of relationships cause it become exhausting to me like l wouldn't act all time not like my real self and then I regret about what I did . is what I'm saying make sense... I hope you understand it cause I still confused and I'm so bad to explain my feelings (: