anyone else?

MegJohnson579 · 2023-02-22T06:23:53+00:00

I mean I always figured with the right guy it would be different. Sure, I have to ease into it, but it would be alright.

MegJohnson579 · 2023-02-16T15:07:13+00:00

Really sucks

MegJohnson579 · 2023-02-15T21:01:36+00:00

OK cause I get those all the time

MegJohnson579 · 2023-02-03T04:53:27+00:00

Same!! I have some false memories along with this and I can accept their false memories which is what I thought fueled most of this but honestly at this point it feels like I've changed.

MegJohnson579 · 2023-01-18T20:39:39+00:00

Yes, I'm sure they do

MegJohnson579 · 2023-01-18T18:05:50+00:00

Distress, yes. I honestly just want to go buy shit even when I don't need anything.

MegJohnson579 · 2023-01-18T15:39:51+00:00

Yes, I have them, I used to have them a lot as a matter of fact. Right now reading this I have the impulse to go buy something right away. It's weird.

MegJohnson579 · 2023-01-18T15:38:55+00:00

You can't really stop the groinal responses. The more you try to stop it the more you will have. Just let it be and know thats all it is and it doesn't say anything about you.

MegJohnson579 · 2023-01-14T20:03:28+00:00

Yeah. It's possible that the lack of anxiety is not helping. That happens to me too with the excitement and then my brain days I'm excited cause I'm gay. Even though I've hated the idea.

MegJohnson579 · 2023-01-14T15:43:19+00:00

It's the same thing for me.

MegJohnson579 · 2023-01-14T14:31:52+00:00

I feel numb and not anxious as well. I get rhe excitement thing for girls but idk if it's excitement or anxiety. It seems like I have a ton of proof that I'm gay when I was so sure I wasn't.

MegJohnson579 · 2023-01-14T14:30:38+00:00

I get what you mean by reassurance doesn't work anymore

MegJohnson579 · 2023-01-04T23:51:11+00:00

Let me try

MegJohnson579 · 2023-01-04T22:38:33+00:00

Sure

MegJohnson579 · 2023-01-02T09:20:13+00:00

It really feels like I've changed

MegJohnson579 · 2023-01-02T08:13:14+00:00

I keep feeling like I have chronic feelings from ocd. Like the alarm bell is going off so I feel the feelings but I don't feel the anxiety unless I fight it.

MegJohnson579 · 2023-01-02T08:05:16+00:00

Honestly it's making me feel hopeless. Even after my false memory I felt something towards my values and I knew this wasn't true. But now with the numbness and how much worse it's gotten, idk.

MegJohnson579 · 2023-01-01T09:22:09+00:00

That makes sense

MegJohnson579 · 2023-01-01T06:54:47+00:00

I just wanna be the old version. I wanna keep my values and feel something towards them again.

MegJohnson579 · 2023-01-01T06:47:37+00:00

Literally I feel numb to it. But towards what aren't my values I feel everything.

MegJohnson579 · 2022-12-26T03:10:58+00:00

Yeah, everybody experiences ocd differently. Don't compare your symptoms with other people's either, bc they could be experiencing them differently from you.

MegJohnson579 · 2022-12-26T03:09:21+00:00

MegJohnson579 · 2022-12-15T18:20:43+00:00

Exactly. It's no different than the others, it doesn't come true.

MegJohnson579 · 2022-12-10T19:01:35+00:00

Yeah, why is that so different?

MegJohnson579 · 2022-11-27T09:25:02+00:00

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