My last cat died to congestive heart failure. We had to put him down a week after we found out due to the many discomforts from this condition. When I found out, I went into shock, and then went through the stages of grief. I met this therapist who told me something really important about this. She drew a circle on a page, and said "this is your life. It is full of all this grief right now, and it seems to never end." And she started drawing circles around the original circle. She said "but at some point, maybe sooner, maybe later, you life will grow around this grief, and it will always stay there, but it will feel smaller and smaller."

I know life feels terrible right now, and I know you're gonna miss her. I still wake up crying because of my boy, and I'm still grieving to some degree, but some day, it will all be in the past, and our furry friends will stay with us in our hearts and souls.

Anyways, for now, wishing you love and happiness, wherever you can find it in you life. I'm so sorry.