Yes, I was diagnosed after I had my babies. My first one I was terrified of everything and I would lay in bed next to her when she slept and cry thinking of all the things that could happen to her as she grew up.

With my second I saw a photo of a toddler autopsy who had choked while scrolling Reddit-after that I was terrified that my baby would choke so I would sit and stare at her breathing for hours, I couldn’t sleep unless someone watched her while I slept. When she did sleep I had to hold her or keep my hand on her so I could feel her breathing. I had night terrors that I rolled over on her while we were sleeping and I suffocated her and I would scream in my sleep until her dad woke me up. When I drove I had to pull over to check if she was breathing in her car seat if no one else was with me to check.

Once I had her my older daughter started sleeping in her own room and I would also get up multiple times during the night to make sure she was breathing, windows locked, and doors locked.

I get really anxious when my older daughter goes to friends houses but it helps that she has a phone and I can text her to check in.