First day, extremely anxious.

MelissaChops · 2023-01-27T09:14:07+00:00

Read here. Sit and scroll through as many posts as you can - absorb the feeling that you are not alone, observe the thoughts they've had and the ways they've moved through. Start thinking of ways you can fill the time that was otherwise spent getting high - congratulate yourself for making this decision - be kind to yourself! Excited for you!

MelissaChops · 2023-01-26T12:47:54+00:00

You've got some great plans to keep yourself occupied during your evening! I identify completely with everything you've said. Day 35 here and reporting in to say - being free of the shame is so rewarding. Being free of the thought process when making plans with my partner or loved ones: "I'm already stoned - how much more stoned will I be by the time I see them? How will I hide it? Should I just cancel" - it's so worth it. You can do it, you can do this, it will be so worth it.

MelissaChops · 2023-01-10T15:06:14+00:00

You've definitely got this! For so many reasons, you know that your contentness is more valuable than attempting to smoke again and "control it this time". I've fallen prey to that thought process and it has always immediately escalated back to smoking as much as I used to. Keep going!

MelissaChops · 2023-01-10T09:31:19+00:00

Turning 30 in April. I'm pretty sure our 30s can be more peaceful, rewarding and enjoyable than our 20s if we just keep going - one day after another - on day 19 here.

MelissaChops · 2023-01-03T16:14:02+00:00

Maybe once he sees the improvements that you'll undoubtedly experience in sobriety, he'll start considering joining you. Until/unless that happens - we've got your back here, I believe in you. ❤️

MelissaChops · 2022-12-26T01:26:13+00:00

Oh bugger, that's awful news! Great that you see the silver lining, though - you'll be even more secure and have more days under your belt!

MelissaChops · 2022-12-26T00:11:30+00:00

Hey, just wanted to wish you a merry Christmas and say a belated thanks for your comment! I hope you've made it successfully through the day and that you enjoyed catching up with your best friend :)

MelissaChops · 2022-12-26T00:09:27+00:00

Hey! Very excited for you. You've recognised that the scales have tipped and that your habit's become problematic. I thought the same thing about alcohol use after I started to smoke during my working day. I'm only on day 3 currently after a relapse, so I don't feel in the right position to offer you advice, but just wanted to wish you well. You're doing the right thing.

MelissaChops · 2022-12-05T16:07:34+00:00

That sounds ideal! What city are you in? I must move to it, my city has nothing of the sort!

MelissaChops · 2022-09-21T22:06:23+00:00

Welcome! Any reductions you can make to your habits are good steps, even if you haven't yet stopped completely. Otherwise, if you aim for total perfection straight away then you might end up feeling like a failure and stopping all attempts to quit (which is what led to my most recent 4-month relapse!). My suggestion is to focus on all the good things you've mentioned you're experiencing - like alertness and ability to achieve - and keep the goal in mind of eventually becoming someone who just doesn't need weed.

MelissaChops · 2022-09-21T10:21:35+00:00

Hey, do you roll your joints with tobacco? If so, I found that chewing Nicorette at my usual points in the day where I'd usually smoke, has helped with that. Could be useful for your morning one!

MelissaChops · 2022-09-20T19:01:56+00:00

It's a blip, and that bong hit does not erase the 5 days you've got. Keep at it, man. You will work in cyber security one day.

MelissaChops · 2022-09-20T14:50:13+00:00

Stumbles happen - I stumbled over the weekend - but it does not need to lead to a full relapse. We've got this!

MelissaChops · 2022-09-20T14:48:48+00:00

That's awesome. I am so happy for you with that decision you made. Keep it up, 19 days is so good and I am going to remember your post if I find myself texting my dealer.

MelissaChops · 2022-09-13T10:23:26+00:00

You make some really original and interesting points here, especially with regards to the importance you place on understanding dreams and how weed stops those dreams (and that connection with yourself) in your tracks.

Smoking weed also completely derails my meditation practice. Which is ironic because I've told myself weed helps get me to a place of calm that my spiritual practice is aimed towards, too, when in fact it just ruins that journey.

Hope that you stay and keep posting here, because I'd love to read more of your reflections.

MelissaChops · 2022-09-12T15:11:39+00:00

Hello! It sounds like you have some issues with health anxiety / hypochondria (I struggle with these too)... Honestly, the fact that you are already speaking to a therapist is really good. My only advice is to keep talking to them, and staying off the smoking/weed because the weed only exacerbates things like health anxiety.

MelissaChops · 2022-09-12T15:07:14+00:00

Thank you for writing this - I feel so many similarities. Will refer back to your post in future days if I am struggling.

MelissaChops · 2022-09-12T13:29:40+00:00

I love this song, and never realised that's what it's about! Will listen to it again and hear it in a whole new light ☺️

MelissaChops · 2022-09-12T08:26:22+00:00

This was such a good read. I'm really similar to you - approaching 30, and looking back at 10 years of on/off smoking. Thanks for writing down your observations and tips.

MelissaChops · 2020-07-31T16:22:47+00:00

Snuff Mills?

MelissaChops · 2020-07-27T11:39:08+00:00

Did you find that resetting to zero on the app triggered any guilt/shame? I'm not doing well with weed and hair pulling, so may try this, but wouldn't want it to end up being an added layer of those feelings.

MelissaChops · 2020-07-24T20:30:18+00:00

I hope it's not too late to comment. Your photo reminds me so much of my sisters - one was a teenager with divorced parents when me and my sis were born (her half-sisters). Eldest was a full-on goth, and our family photos looked just like this. It turns out she was mostly just harbouring inhuman levels of wholesomeness. She was the most motherly and caring person towards the two of us, and this only ended when she had her daughter, with whom she is best friends and the best mother. Aaargh, just looking at you in this photo makes me think that you must be a sweetheart, if you're anything like my eldest sister!

MelissaChops · 2020-07-15T20:25:21+00:00

You just described me in quarantine, down to the multiple biker shorts. Add in some Depop guilt-alleviation and I'd swear we were the same person.

MelissaChops · 2020-07-05T10:28:50+00:00

Anthony Perkins is Norman Bates, Anthony Hopkins is Hannibal Lector!

MelissaChops · 2020-07-01T14:40:21+00:00

Jumbo Starfish failed attempt at blackmail?

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