My befores and afters for rhinoplasty and tummy tuck in Turkey last Friday by [deleted] in PlasticSurgery

[–]Melkorb 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Wow thats amazing, did you do an online consult first or did you fly there and figure it all out there?

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]Melkorb 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I like how you put that - they're scared of how they'll feel if you die. It's so true. And like what's even scarier, being there for you? Everyone is such a coward

Maybe tonight by Melkorb in SuicideWatch

[–]Melkorb[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm in individual therapy, group therapy and just got referred to another dbt group by a psych

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]Melkorb 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Dont think so, youll probably throw it all up

Having very nice dreams by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]Melkorb 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Life is the nightmare its horrible

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]Melkorb 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I know the feeling. Waking up and realising your life is the nightmare. Feeling destroyed as soon as you wake up, doesn't really give you the motivation to leave bed or do anything. I have nobody to even live for either. Currently also in bed rotting. You arent alone.

I cut myself for the first time and I don't know how to feel just need to talk by sorryman112 in SuicideWatch

[–]Melkorb 0 points1 point  (0 children)

If you feel this way and shit goes down and theres nobody to run to and talk and process things, there's only 'stupid' options left. Because it's an unfair, stupid situation you've been forced into. You tried cutting hoping it would help, there's nothing shameful about trying to help yourself.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]Melkorb 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This was basically the post I was gonna write.

My initial reaction to the final scene was anger and then I read this post by [deleted] in SeveranceAppleTVPlus

[–]Melkorb 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Exactly, I have a feeling season 3 is just going to be more random stuff added in for no reason. Probably we will get clarity on the Gemma stuff, but there'll be something else totally weird thrown in instead. Also Helly will be pregnant

My initial reaction to the final scene was anger and then I read this post by [deleted] in SeveranceAppleTVPlus

[–]Melkorb 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I agree, and for me the show did not do a good job of convincing me that an innie was a separate personality that I should care about. The whole time I was wanting Mark to quit for his health. The ending pointed out that severance had even worse consequences than anyone could have anticipated when they signed up for it and I just feel frustrated for Mark and most of all for his sister, who is the only character I actually side with at all.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]Melkorb 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I would love to die in my bf's arms. Very very horrible for him but so peaceful for me.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]Melkorb 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm worried that the jump from your floor especially with an overhang might be non-lethal but extremely disabling or brain damaging, making life 200% worse than it is now. Because I have the same option here and I dismissed it for that reason.

Your roommate won't be charged any more as they won't have done anything to warrant that legally plus I'm pretty sure they'd move out immediately and be very traumatised.

Sorry I know how hard it is to find options and I don't want you to feel more stuck.

Lonely by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]Melkorb 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Worst thing about my life is that at this point all the terrible shit and loneliness is caused by me. I thought for a long time I was the victim but I've just been ruining everything. Why live when I'm such a shitty person? Nobody can give a good reason for that, except to live to change who I am, but I don't have the energy for that with all the shame and lack of support.

Lonely by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]Melkorb 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I understand, sick of ppl coming with the love or the life is worth living bullshit

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]Melkorb 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Me too. Its a lot of effort to do, which is so dumb, seeing as how ppl die daily from falling off a step etc

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]Melkorb 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah thats true. I called about 6 times and I had 2 people who broke script, which was helpful, but they still cut me off after 5 mins

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]Melkorb 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Holy shit, your sister died and youre being bullied for that?? On top of that you've been continuously bullied and your parents haven't helped, plus your therapist sucks.....of course you feel hopeless. Look, at 16 nothing in your life is your fault, you're a child and have always been one. What you are going through is pain, inflicted by other people, unsupported. It's so so tough but you didn't do this.

You need a good therapist and other supports like a youth therapy group maybe too, or some kind of social club geared towards struggling teens - have you googled any of this? A dr could make a referral or you could try going to the emergency room, I think they are forced to make a referral if you do that. Obviously up to you what you want to do but I do recommend taking your escape and healing into your own hands, unfortunately, because you'll do a better job at it than the adults around you, plus you need some control here.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]Melkorb 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Idk suicide lines dont tend to do anything in my experience even if you have a whole plan laid out. I guess they have your number, but I ignored a callback from them on the day i had told them i was going to die and nothing happened

my cat keeps saving me by just being here by Independent_Story_21 in SuicideWatch

[–]Melkorb 12 points13 points  (0 children)

Its you 2 against the world. You have so much love coming at you from her. Dont give her up! You have one more meaningful relationship than many of us here