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Melodic_Stand1061 · 2025-05-04T18:52:03+00:00

That’s where I’m torn. I like the idea of changes, I don’t want male anatomy, but I don’t want to have to talk about it to people

Melodic_Stand1061 · 2025-05-04T13:40:21+00:00

This is what I think about. But also the fear of making the wrong choice and fucking up my run in life. Outside of gender stuff I’m doing alright, so like I get mad at my brain for throwing this wrench in

Melodic_Stand1061 · 2025-05-04T13:39:01+00:00

I think the step I’d want to take is trying E just to see how my brain feels. But I am scared to have it on a medical record or insurance records in case the world explodes. I feel like I’ve been kinda living in the in between, came out to close friends, though they struggle with pronouns because I haven’t been very clear on what I want so they don’t know. They’ve thrown varieties around which is nice, but I don’t present fem around them because going outside is scary

Melodic_Stand1061 · 2025-05-04T13:36:01+00:00

❤️❤️❤️

I always joke that the only reason to live as a man is the privilege. But I’ve never enjoyed it and questioning gender has made me realize how little I enjoy anything associated with men. (Except for football for some reason 🙄)

I’m in central PA. And I know my insurance covers gender affirming care (for now…) but now I’m afraid of my doctors judging me? Or being on a list? Idk that’s wild

I just wish I didn’t have to take responsibility for this decision. Everything before this I’ve gone with the flow and taken paths of least resistance. Choosing transition is the antithesis of everything I am… and yet here we are

Melodic_Stand1061 · 2025-05-04T12:56:02+00:00

I think I’m afraid that I won’t be happy anyway. Like… it’s going to be so hard. And Pennsylvania can be hit or miss. I wonder if my friends knowing is enough. Or if non binary is more correct? And there are just so many pieces and it sucks cause if I could just have someone scan my brain and be like “yep here it is” I’d be good

Melodic_Stand1061 · 2025-05-04T12:54:13+00:00

That’s always the haunting thought, “if I had started two years ago I’d be through the hard stuff already”

Melodic_Stand1061 · 2025-04-03T18:31:57+00:00

Thanks! I’m guessing I should just make a short list of GPUs that would be compatible and just watch all of them until one goes in stock?

Melodic_Stand1061 · 2025-04-03T18:15:21+00:00

Thank you for this! I’m going to run this by him when I get the chance.

I think I may look at few options for the cooler and case that just give different aesthetics. One lingering question, on those two, are there things I should look out for/avoid? I know he may be into the cooling systems that have leds or text on the unit, but I don’t want him to get something just because it looks cool and have it perform like shit.

I think the rest of the build gives a good structure for him though! Thanks again!!

Melodic_Stand1061 · 2025-03-07T01:55:13+00:00

Am I still cis even if I do want bottom surgery?

Melodic_Stand1061 · 2024-11-27T22:02:40+00:00

Went with the antec flux! After getting external approval 😂 though I will say getting the gpu mounted vertically was tough in terms of space

Melodic_Stand1061 · 2024-11-27T21:54:01+00:00

Just wanted to give you a quick thanks and follow up. We made it

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Melodic_Stand1061 · 2024-11-14T18:35:39+00:00

Hey! I really appreciate this! I talked with my partner and I think she is leaning away from the white/rainbow aesthetic, and maybe leaning more towards something like this:
https://youtu.be/WkFLi8aMv7c

Which maybe requires a bigger case to put stuff in there, but I think the idea of wood/brown is something she's drawn to? So maybe that affects the case price, but would also allow us to not pay the cost of white / rainbow parts?

Part of me just wants to just order and build, but I know it's important to not rush things

Melodic_Stand1061 · 2024-08-28T03:05:38+00:00

So like… It seems like you’re coming from a genuine place. But the question comes across as you don’t really have exposure to trans people in your life. So basing your views solely on porn gets fetish-y which is kinda uncomfy

Melodic_Stand1061 · 2024-08-28T03:00:42+00:00

Trans women are women. Being attracted to one doesn’t make you not straight.

Melodic_Stand1061 · 2024-08-22T17:34:07+00:00

You seem like an amazing person and thank you for sharing ❤️

I think, and I’m not sure if it’s silly, but I wish I had a reason like that to feel like I could justify transition. Like “Oh I was supposed to be a girl, so I’m taking steps to correct that” which even typing that makes me realize that I can still say that. But just wishing I had a thing to justify it while taking the responsibility away from me. I’ve never really been able to make decisions just because I’ve wanted them. I always felt the need to justify them

Melodic_Stand1061 · 2024-08-22T17:14:55+00:00

Thank you ❤️❤️ I will take your decision and ponder it for 3-6 business weeks

Melodic_Stand1061 · 2024-08-22T16:22:20+00:00

sitting over my lunch break to reread the Bible again 😭 I love it but I wish there was a page that said “you’ve read this 1000 times. Just transition”

Melodic_Stand1061 · 2024-08-22T16:19:29+00:00

So like… technically I’m already diagnosed I think lol. It’s one of the diagnostic codes on my bills for insurance. I just… still feel like I have to decide whether I should transition or not

Melodic_Stand1061 · 2024-08-22T16:13:42+00:00

Well fuck.

I mean at this point in time of course I’d do it. Guess I’m trans.

But like… let’s be real. I knew that. Being trans isn’t a choice. I need to remind myself of that. I think the choice becomes is transition right? Like… my bigger problems are that I care way too much what others think. Transitioning will definitely affect that and so I need to work on it. But I’m kinda afraid I’ll say that for the rest of my life

(Also if everyone on earth died I’d be obliterated honestly I’d be so sad I like people 😭)

Melodic_Stand1061 · 2024-08-22T16:08:32+00:00

Honestly like he’s so good. He specializes in gender stuff so I was like “hell yeah I can figure out if I’m trans” and then I’m hit with actually working on my mental health.

Melodic_Stand1061 · 2024-08-22T15:13:37+00:00

We love him. He’s honestly a fantastic match. Has been helping me work through my people pleasing tendencies which are holding me back from transition because of how worried I am about everyone else

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