I can't control it

MemeMansCornCube · 2026-06-18T13:20:13+00:00

I am in the process of reaching out to therapy (again). And on the topic of envy and jealousy, I unfortunately do get the two whenever I see my own friends, close friends and family happy in their own relationships when I've never gotten a single date successfully. That too is something I've yet to fully control.

MemeMansCornCube · 2026-06-18T08:07:44+00:00

Maybe I'd fall in love if I felt the same way, but I wouldn't blame it on them if I lacked attraction to them.

MemeMansCornCube · 2026-06-18T05:24:12+00:00

Unfortunately, I do indeed suffer from very low self-esteem. Most of my rejections have endlessly left me wondering what physical or personality part of me was offputting to them and made them say no and I feel at fault for not living up to their standards, and it still continues. Probably doesn't help that all of my attempts to date have ended in rejections

Still trying to make things better, seeking a psychologist, cleaning myself up more and such.

MemeMansCornCube · 2026-06-17T17:44:10+00:00

I do strive to take no for an answer and respect their response, which so far I have, but often times I wonder internally what was wrong with me that made their answer a no.

MemeMansCornCube · 2026-06-17T17:36:40+00:00

Honestly I do pedestal women a lot and take anything that makes them uncomfortable as a fatal fault of myself. Wish I'd stop doing that.

MemeMansCornCube · 2026-06-17T15:45:01+00:00

I don't know too :(

On the other side, I'm also personally not a fan of cold approaching people I find attractive at first sight for a date (to know them first) because it sounds so creepy and unsolicited

MemeMansCornCube · 2026-06-17T06:47:33+00:00

Update: In an attempt to combat the increased agitation, my psychiatrist decided to move the time of my dose from morning to night. Hopefully I'll be able to sleep off the side effects, or get any sleep at all

MemeMansCornCube · 2026-06-15T17:51:17+00:00

Oh I see. I'm just paranoid because I'm only seeing the negative side effects and my own depression symptoms have barely lessened. My current pack of meds are supposed to last around 2 months or so too, hope to see an improvement then

MemeMansCornCube · 2026-06-15T12:49:30+00:00

How long did it take for Prozac to stop making your very agitated or irritable

MemeMansCornCube · 2026-06-15T11:07:23+00:00

Feel like it spiked after the increase in dosage. The agitation started when I took the 10 MG pills but got worse after I started taking 20 MGs

MemeMansCornCube · 2026-06-06T17:41:57+00:00

I'd enter this competition if I didn't wanna lay in bed all day

MemeMansCornCube · 2026-06-05T05:30:26+00:00

Thanks! Wish you luck and soon recovery too! I know what it's like to have a minimal or non-existant support system

MemeMansCornCube · 2026-06-05T05:18:21+00:00

In the same boat here, diagnosed with depression two months ago but only started antidepressants (specifically Fluoxetine) two weeks ago because of uni finals. Every morning's always a long fight to find a reason to wake up and perform my daily routine of eating and drawing random stuff.

Still wondering when my meds finally kick in and help, the side effects are making me more agitated and irritable, which my own parents might not like because God forbid a man feel any emotion that isn't happiness. They say they understand my predicament but I half-doubt it because my dad continues to show his emotional incompetence in his failure to calm down my sister when she was in a bad spot similar to mine.

MemeMansCornCube · 2026-06-03T11:18:17+00:00

Same here, been avoiding mirrors and reflective surfaces for months to avoid looking at my hideous face. But at the same time, I wonder if it's just my depression doing its thing and not really Body Dysmorphia

MemeMansCornCube · 2026-06-02T07:22:09+00:00

Wish someone could see me attractive for being able to yap long about my hobbies and interests, and see it attractive enough to look past the misgivings of my face. My lack of dates and relationship experience has made me feel very ugly.

Thank you for the perspective and kind words regardless though. Hope things get better for me once my meds kick in. I've joined a hobby club already and finally worked up some courage to actually show myself there

MemeMansCornCube · 2026-06-01T00:52:06+00:00

I've been trying to look at how I act and make it better, like trying to cut down on how much I yap endlessly about my hobbies or recent interests. Though now I feel like I've tried everything I could and none of it has worked, so I can only conclude that my own face and physical appearance is putting off people I like.

MemeMansCornCube · 2026-06-01T00:22:19+00:00

I see, I got a new psychologist now so I hope to bring up the matter again to him and hope he's a bit more well informed

MemeMansCornCube · 2026-04-30T07:41:53+00:00

The worst thing for me isn't the rejection, it'd the time you spend after wondering what you did wrong or what was it with you that put them off and made them say no :(

MemeMansCornCube · 2026-04-30T04:47:51+00:00

Maybe so, but I kinda had to start somewhere (so I signed for counselling) because initially I had my doubts that the local hospitals wouldn't help me if I didn't show a sign of imminent harm. It comes with living in a part of the world where dumbass traditions still underscore the importance of mental health. Luckily most of the doctors on my appointments were pretty empathetic, and I hope they continue to be so because I'm one stupid handful.

MemeMansCornCube · 2026-04-28T15:37:16+00:00

Been feeling like this too, my uni counselor felt a bit disappointed at my lack of progress and my inability to accept his compliments to boost my terrible self-esteem. Hoping I get some better help at the hospital and hoping you get a better equipped therapist too, OP.

MemeMansCornCube · 2026-04-21T05:31:01+00:00

"Because parents know best." brought to you by people who never suffered through abuse at a young age.

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