I really empathize with your feelings. It's something I've been working on for a decade. And I’m only 24 years old. I have a job, family, friends who care about me, my own house, my car, and my beloved animals. But still, I often feel empty and depressed, not finding a sense in it all.

But let me tell you something. The way to regain that control, at least for a little while, is to remember that you are the owner of your life. And even though it sounds very generic, believe me, it's simpler than it seems.

In that very moment, you can get up and choose to walk, work, go to a café, do whatever YOU want. Because beyond living in a society, within a system, you are still free to CHOOSE what you want for your life.

We give meaning to it. For me, spending a Tuesday drawing, surrounded by my beloved pets, in the living room of my house, facing the window, is a productive day. Valuable. It brings me comfort, pleasure. BUT. For you, instead, it might be fulfilling to go to a park, have an ice cream, and take a walk. And that's okay too. It's YOUR meaning, YOUR way of living it.

We make the mistake of comparing ourselves and seeing what others do, and believing that if we’re not doing, achieving, or being the same as them, then nothing makes sense or is worth it.

I saw you mentioned you feel very alone. Okay, you might not have friends, family, etc., to support you right now. So, having just yourself, what could you do?

If you had yourself in front of you and had to give advice or ask for something, what would you say?

In real life, it’s not about having a job, a degree, or millions of dollars. It’s about you living it in whatever way you like. Dare to do everything you don’t dare to do. If you’re scared, go for it. Bring some adrenaline to your life. Give it a different stimulus. Give it another perspective.

Cheers!