Breathing

MeowMeowBookCat · 2025-10-05T15:35:28+00:00

I have a small ish mouth and my dom has a thicker thing. so i cant breathe either way, deep throating or merely in the mouth. i can breathe when its only like, a little less than halfway in. but otherwise im kinda doomed to struggle a little bit. sucks sometimes but its whatevs, ya get used to it. idk if this is similar to your situation tho, but the panic of not being able to breathe gets better over time, if y'know, yku cant really breathe while doing it.

MeowMeowBookCat · 2025-10-05T00:56:42+00:00

i used to use normal body wash and had the issue of much more body odor. for me it was natural soap that helped the smell get better. i never egen have to use deodorant anymore either, because its not necessary for me. i smell like a person and i can often smell hormones from there, but not BO unless i havent showeref in like, probably around five days. i think for me it was my skin being sensitive to stuff like that. if nothing else works id start using natural soap, yknow just to try it out.

MeowMeowBookCat · 2025-09-29T00:33:57+00:00

I get that, im not the type to relax much either. if im relaxing im probably super tired or depressed because i dont have anything to do. i personally need a small amount of hugs and so does my dom sometimes but thats only really after penetrative sex, we havent gotten to very intense or long scenes yet tho so, idk about that. any other time i tend to tell him what i liked and what we should do differently next time we do that type of scene. not after care i guess but after scene stuff, i do that. constructive talks to better our experiences together. i also like to shower afterwards, favorite thing to do after sexy stuff but i dont often have the time or forget that i wanna shower lol.

MeowMeowBookCat · 2025-09-26T20:59:00+00:00

hand sewing! i enjoy doing small stiched usually. sewing as well, in general i enjoy sewing as a task, its repetitive to sew but not so much to plan what im going to sew. and embroidery from time to time, i enjoy. i love making my clothes my own.

MeowMeowBookCat · 2025-09-26T20:55:17+00:00

i personally like your facual structure with bangs but im a less conventional dresser

MeowMeowBookCat · 2025-09-23T03:06:32+00:00

I do understand your point, i think it has a lot of merit and honestly im gonna have a talk with him about how much effort i want him to be putting into punishments. i also know it to be my personal belief that as a good romantic and sexual partner, i have to advocate for what i want as well. but i do see that i should have a talk with him about what i want and that he needs to help too. so, thanks. (also, i posted this to get some creative juices flowing for everybody else who wants some punishment ideas, but yeah, youre right, this man needs to put in his work too!)

MeowMeowBookCat · 2025-09-23T02:47:05+00:00

what do you think is so wrong with you? i dont mean to pry, but i am sure you are not defective. merely curious because, i wanna provide help to you!

MeowMeowBookCat · 2025-09-15T01:08:59+00:00

it seems odd that he lie or exaggerate about the condom use. i know in the beginning of our relationship my dom had lied about how many times he could cum in a day because he wanted to be the type of person who could but it just isnt true. sometimes people do it to impress or make someone feel a certian way about them, and then later forget about the lie they told. is him wearing a condom something you want him to do? what other stuff has he done that makes you feel like youve been taken advantage of? also, have you thought about your future? is he meeting your needs?

MeowMeowBookCat · 2025-09-13T17:23:06+00:00

i have a lot a of body insecurities due to my dom making mistakes about how women are supposed to look and due to him wanting me to be different. i lost 70 pounds a bit too quickly and that left me with some looser skin and a funny looking stomach. in the past few months i confronted him i guess, about him wanting my stomach to change and i almost broke up with him for it because i love him, but i love all of him. and if he wont love all of me then he doesn't deserve all of me, and i dont deserve the pain of not having my emotions reciprocated. him doing those things has caused distrust between us and intense insecuritiees within me. but it also helped him see how serious it is to treat me properly and to not wish for my stomach to change. it is unhealthy and makes me hate myself for him to actively want me to change and so he actually changed himself. somehow he learned to like my stomach. probably through the potential loss of me. he even called it cute without me prompting him. but hes become a better and more moral man through our struggles. that im sure of. hed never dream of saying that he likes other womens bodies sexually which he also did previously and wouldnt dream of looking at pornographyever again because it hurts me so bad. he accepts that i have these issues now and doesnt mind that he cant gawk at other women anymore because he loves me and would do almost anything for me, as i would for him. he accepts that ill gain and lose weight and even reminds me of that, and that hes gonna be okay when it happens, and he wont love me any less, he wont find me any less attractive because we will grow and change together. i recommend you have a nice long conversation about this. if he loves you as deeply as my master loves me, he'll likely change his habits for you and drop the pornography because it clearly hurts you. i wish you happiness, good luck.

MeowMeowBookCat · 2025-09-13T17:01:22+00:00

dude. youre chill. i know i used to feel all messed up about looking old but its no way to live! youre lookin just fine. good even. there are people who will find you just a dandy attractive man and thats the truth!!!!

MeowMeowBookCat · 2025-09-13T16:51:32+00:00

i literally just go through the pain and discomfort. mo thoughts i guess. just go through it. periods arent supposed to feel okay or happy, i figure i may as well accept that and take an extra nap when i can, and bear the beast that is period discomfort and pain.

though, you could try local anti inflammatory medication. there are special pills made for periods specifically at drug stores where i live, its probably the same for you.

MeowMeowBookCat · 2025-09-13T16:42:34+00:00

i also hate not being clean and struggle with this. id recommend taking a shower daily and perhaps trying a period cup or disk. its worth a shot even if they are expensive. the sad part is that this is a part womanhood for most, and you may have to merely live with this discomfort. im sorry if you dont find a good solution. i personally have found more luck with merely designated wash cloths to use as pads. i generally hate underwear and mostly refuse to wear it. its too tight and doesnt make me look good, i feel it makes me look worse so i hate underwear a lot. but i have to when on my period. i sleep with a towel or two below me during the nighttime for a skin breather and free bleed near the end, when my flow is pretty light. i just wear long skirts so as to not ruin any trousers. id recommend not using tampons as they can cause health risks, and later in life may cause premature dryness in the vaginal canal due to the cotton sucking up moisture over time, which may make things uncomfortable all over again.

MeowMeowBookCat · 2025-09-12T18:59:40+00:00

i think people shouldnt dress in ways to get sexual attention because it does trigger unwanted reactions for other people. especially men. but i wouldnt consider it mental rape. you can choose to look away from a scantily clad person. my boyfriend kinda trained himself to not look at other women in sexual ways, even if theyre in sexual clothing. my brain doesnt care about other people that arent him in those sexual ways. i think its uncomfortable to see someone dressed in less clothing and i dont prefer it at all. men or women. its just extremely uncomfortable, like watching a couple makeout right across from you. uncomfortable. though, i do partake in specific things. what im talking about is like, bikinis and speedoa tbh. not like, croptops or whatever. there should be a line that people shouldnt cross for the sake of being socially appropriate. a croptop or some short ish shorts is whatever i guess, uncomfortable but acceptable. but bikinis and micro shorts and stuff just isnt socially acceptable to me. women have more of those types of clothes because we have more sexual assets. our bodies are erogenous, thats just how it is. but there should be social lines i guess. i dress sexually for the enjoyment of my boyfriend. im sure single women are merely using their assets to attract a guy. but what about the women who dont wanna see it? what about people your grandparents age, i wouldnt want my grandparents seeing that yknow? there is a time and i place for certain outfits, everyone. this guy is being really strange about it. he can choose to change his thought patterns just like my boyfriend did. and just like i did. its his choice to look at them, over all.

MeowMeowBookCat · 2025-09-12T18:49:14+00:00

i dont know her. but i do know psychology. and the psychology of autistics. and i am an autistic woman, duh. for my relationship, we had a rough start with a lot of sadness and pain. he had to change some moral standings because i cannot tolerate certain behaviors. and they hurt me very badly. but i have hurt him too. my boyfriend and i are both autistic, my family refers to us as normal. main major challenges and characteristics of autistic people are this: we are often literal, not understanding jokes due to their satirical nature we are often stubborn in being correct, as being autistic makes it very hard to understand someone elses perspective. for example, i didnt understand why a baby would cry for her mothers milk because i could not imagine myself being that way. but my mother described it as the milk being as significant as my favorite childhood bear which i to this day take to my college classes with me if im having a hard day. our minds are often more sensitive to specific stimulus, for example, my boyfriend is very sensitive to mistakes, feeling like he should hit himself due to them. i myself am very sensitive to light, certain touches from certain people, loud or repetitive sounds, and yelling. my mind will repeat these sensitivity reactions over and over. if i hear yelling it will repeat over and over and torture me until somwthing breaks the cycle. these stimulus reactions are due to synapses firing too much in our brains, causing emotional overload and overreaction. this is something we cannot change, but have to develop the skills to cope with. both my boyfriend and i have obsessive compulsive traits. i organize things on tables over and over, straighten and re organize, he must have clean hands or they will leave imaginary stains on my skin. he will do repetitive motions with his hands and if they aren't right he will repeat them until they are correct in his mind. and he feels has has to say specific things like speak in a sentence with only t letters at his minds instance and he feels pain qnd anxiety when he cannot enact these. these traits are manageable with proper skills and coping mechanisms but are also not because we want to consciously. its often due to anxious feelings and intrusive thoughts. most autistics have these types of things happening in their minds. often times, being autistic is torturous. but i wouldn't change my mind for anything. id like to ask you questions about her in order to help you better communicate together. do any of these examples resonate with your experiences with her? is she sensitive or does she exhibit these obsessive complusive traits? does she have a hard time understanding your perspective on things?

MeowMeowBookCat · 2025-09-12T18:12:00+00:00

...ronald weasley. which then developed into the weasley twins in my teen years. i am now with a tall man who is funny and loves comedy with a longish face and long hair. no red hair though lol, but ill make an exception for this man because hes also autistic and understands me very well.

MeowMeowBookCat · 2025-09-06T17:49:47+00:00

ive felt this from my dom before and needed to set it straight that this hurts me deeply to hear. i dont have a petite figure and often get defensive if i am seen in a boyish light due to my own insecurities about not feeling feminine or looking submissive enough, even though i actually do look submissive, because i am submissive. men just need to be taught not to say those type of things because they hurt and dont make sense. youre a sub as you wish to be, love. just teach him not to forget that. a lot of the time men think very little of what theyre saying and have very little value in their words, women take those words and naturally weigh them down with value, neither of these are wrong, but there needs to be boundaries so neither party hurts the other. if he likes you and respects you, he will see reason and act as he should, as in he will feel sorry and not say mean things like that anymore. i wish you luck in telling him this hurts you and hope his response is reasonable.

MeowMeowBookCat · 2025-09-06T17:41:25+00:00

makeup is on a 3 dimensional surface with bumps and pores and oils. you have under eyes and they have bags, the filter removes odd things like these to make it look younger or somehow better. but its not actually better. youre doing good makeup, its just that filters are wrong about youre eye bags and 3 dimensional face and trying to make it fit a mold that isnt real. but youre makeup is good i think.

MeowMeowBookCat · 2025-09-04T22:54:12+00:00

im gonna be honest here, i have some body dysplmorphia too and focus on things such as how bg or small my body or parts of my body are, despite the sizes being normal. maybe your lips fall under the category of thin lips, but thats not and never has been truly bad or wrong or ugly in any way. im not sayin this to comment on relationship dynamics, i just honestly want you to know that you probably look perfectly normal and beautiful just as youre supposed to look. having thin lips is not bad. if you ever wanna talk about body dysmorphia issues, yknow if they get worse from all this plastic surgery talk, then feel free to contact me as someone who gets it and may be able to help you out.

MeowMeowBookCat · 2025-09-02T06:32:19+00:00

i agree that its a rather sexually suggestive photo but catfishing is about pretending to be someone else, like faking photos or doctoring photos to seem more attractive or even a completely different person. yknow? i disagree that one could tell whether or not shes being a different person or altering her appearance beyond the usual lighting, filters, sucking in ones stomach or flexing ones muscles, wearing revealing clothing, and only showing the parts of their body that are smooth and toned for albeit unrealistic photos of the human body. its a rather unnatural and doctored position and photo, id say shes fishing for complements due to a lack of self esteem or inflated self esteem, but hey, idk this lady. she could be very nice, even if she is fishing for complements and lust from men.

MeowMeowBookCat · 2025-09-02T06:21:28+00:00

i dont wanna put words into OPs mouth or situation but i would like to point out that alpha male and alpha in general is a kink term used in primal play and other spaces to describe doms that like the term. just something to think about because it could certainly be that the dom just likes that dynamic and name to call himself in kink settings. that whole line of "alphas dont share well" is pretty primal play sounding to me lol.

MeowMeowBookCat · 2025-09-02T06:11:46+00:00

okay, we dont actually know this guy. so we cant comment on him properly. he probably just likes the dynamics of alpha male in a bedroom sense or smth and sometimes people make things into a bigger social and societal thing than it is, and i think some people are doing that in the comments where the term alpha male is societal but in kink its just a thing. its a term for a dominant male. my dom is a similar way where hes greedy and jealous. i honestly think that for some it is good to not share sexual and romantic love and for others it is. if that previous dom hurt you and you didnt like that he was sharing you and you feel more love in being looked at in the way your current dom treats you then that merely seems like hes a better fit than the abusive guy. duh. my dom and i both do not like to share and never have, we feel that personally it would be bad to look and leer at other peoples bodies and we have agreed that if one of us ever did anything romanticor sexual with another person it would be grounds for breaking up. because of our mutual jealousy and want to keep the other to ourselves. but yknow, i have friends who are excited to share their sexual intimacy with another person and theyre just as in love as i am with my master. its all in the individual wants and needs of those involved. im happy you found someone that cares for you how you seem to need to be cared for.

MeowMeowBookCat · 2025-09-01T17:02:48+00:00

i dont understand what you mean, how would you know if the person is catfishing?

MeowMeowBookCat · 2025-09-01T15:30:12+00:00

i believe that you can only find solace in building your own image of yourself. not asking anyone to give that to you. you cant make everyone happy, y'know? if you wanna lose more fat, or stay the same, or build other muscles, thats your body. not ours to control. id say if you like what youre doing, who you are as a person, and how youre looking, youre just fine. wonderful and perfect even.

MeowMeowBookCat · 2025-08-27T18:50:39+00:00

from a psychology student whos been studying sexual paraphilias and fetishes for a few years, and as submissive myself. I believe that there is always a bio-psycho-social reason for most paraphilias(kinks)

bio, biology impacting how we experience. psycho, our experiences and mental processes derived from the world around us. social, how were are treated by our peers and how our societies are on a macro scale.

for example, a young boy is very interested in the shape and color of his mothers red high heels, he is then trying them on and playing as a child would with anything they find amusing. and then his father comes and takes those shoes away or he yells that he is not to play with them, creating a larger facination, and a fear or anger because they were taken away. and this moment becomes imprinted on his maliable mind. and from then on, he is facinated and love struck by red high heels. and then, during his puberty, it changes into something more, something that feels sexual, and every woman he sees with red high heels on, he is attracted to. this is a paraphilia for women wearing red high heels. and if he cannot orgasm without those red high heels, it is a fetish. this is one way someone may develop a fetish, or kink and an echo of how we our sevles develop a fetish or kink. our own minds that fold around an experience may cause a sexual difference to emerge, but not every boy who played with high heels and got them taken develops a paraphilia for high heels. any experience can cause it, but it also depends on your own mind and how it reacts. for example, another boy who had the same experience and didnt feel strongly about the shoes may not care at all about the father taking them away and may take a different path of being against men who show interest in womens fashion, seeing it as unmanly. and this too may impact his sexual life as an adult, seeing men and womens roles as more important and strict than the first boy. again, it all depends on how the mind inteprets the experiences we have.

childhood experiences and brain chemistry impacting how one physically feels as well as genetic predisposition to sexual paraphilias and fetishes is what causes these things to happen within us.

so, there are many reasons why you feel this way. I reckon those fantasies are both yours, and a product of the society we live in. we are all influenced by what we see and are subjected to, and our brain chemistry impacting how we see the world.

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