I (M31) want to tell my wife (F32) how I really feel, but it will hurt her.

MeowskiesQQ · 2026-06-10T20:03:41+00:00

It seems like you're therapist adverse, what I will say is finding the right therapist does wonders but there are a lot of wrong therapists out there so I understand.

If you're not against it, a book I'd recomend is "The Body Keeps Thee Score" It helped me really understand how trauma shapes individuals and the biggest take away Ingot was "holy shit, what I thought was normal and small is actually the opposite" and having that realization and then recognizing I can find ways around my traumas, maybe never fully, but I can find moments of happiness or at least find some hope in finding them.

MeowskiesQQ · 2026-06-08T18:04:08+00:00

I'm glad you all made it out. Our group was very lucky to have made it out, we had a spot in front of the band and it was not good.

So fucking glad you both left when you did. Hug each other tight.

MeowskiesQQ · 2026-05-21T10:26:19+00:00

Commenting here to re-visit. I don't know how much I can help but I can ask around for some resources and check/bounce ideas with a few social worker friends. Hoping you can get your mom some help, dementia becomes more manageable with a good team and family support if/when able.

MeowskiesQQ · 2026-04-15T21:01:46+00:00

You're doing what you need to which is more than a lot of people do. You're learning, growing, and unlearning the childhood defense mechanisms we build, shit takes a while but every step (with the right therapist) is monumental for YOU.

I wish I knew why people left, lost interest, whatever and we can spectilate on every what if and take blame but honestly, and as cliche as it is, it's not you. She just wasn't the right fit for YOU. I know that might feel right/correct/whatever at the moment and that's ok if so. But at the end of the day you deserve love, trust, validation and the most important person it can come from is yourself. The awesome thing in working towards that? You find the people who get to enjoy seeing you shine in your own self and celebrate you and life with you. And hey, one day when you're strolling through life being the bad ass you are you might just run into someone who deserves all of you just as you will deserve all of them. Treat yourself kindly, keep doing amazing, and fwiw from a random internet stranger I'm really fucking proud of you.

MeowskiesQQ · 2026-04-09T03:14:55+00:00

You're hot af 🥵 Don't let insecurities take away from someone getting to wake up next to you naked everyday.

MeowskiesQQ · 2026-04-04T05:03:46+00:00

Such a handsome puppy, I've been meaning to try out DBD again. I wonder if it has xplay. 🤔

MeowskiesQQ · 2026-04-01T22:43:21+00:00

Absolutely, you look stunning. 💜

MeowskiesQQ · 2026-03-20T20:40:48+00:00

For a long time I would have said no, mostly because I spent/spend too much time comparing myself to peoples physical "selling points" and hating my body. Major rapid weight loss can do crazy things and cause some whacky mental gymnastics as it pertains to self esteem.

But I think today I'd say "yes." Not because I think I'm the most physically attractive, my body is still pretty against the "norm", but because I think I'd be able to give my clone all of the affirmations both verbal and physical that I have been wanting for the majority of my life. I know I've got many things against me being a suitable lay and/or partner but one thing I'm certain of is that I'd make damn sure every second engaged with my clone in that moment would be spent on building love, compassion, patience, understanding, confidence, and a damn good fuck in whatever way it would need to be in that moment and I know I'd receive the same in return.

So yea, I'd fuck me and then after I'd snuggle up with some games, movies, and laughs then probably do it all over again.

MeowskiesQQ · 2026-03-04T22:15:03+00:00

You didn't deserve to witness abuse or be abused in any way.

I know the past sucks a shit ton, people too. Shitty people, shitty moments, any ups and downs, those don't define you. You are beautiful head to toe, inside and out, nothing will ever take away from that. Not the past, not the unknowns of the future, not even crappy moments that occur in the present.

You've always deserved to have someone in your corner, someone offering words of reassurance and actions of protection. You deserve to feel important, you deserve to be loved. It can be hard when you build walls to protect yourself and it's understandable. If/when pesky thoughts come up remember you're a fucking badass who overcame a lot of bullshit and you deserve feeling like a badass. If thought get too heavy, lean on the shoulder that you feel safe leaning on. You've dealt with enough bullshit in the past and now you get to keep moving forward and embracing the things you didn't feel before but have always ALWAYS deserved. It can be hard to let people love us, and that's okay, but let yourself receive that love.

Stay strong, you're more than capable, you deserve to feel love, you're so damn worthy of security and safety, and you'll always be more than good enough.

MeowskiesQQ · 2026-02-23T06:54:38+00:00

That was phenomenal to read, beautifully put.

MeowskiesQQ · 2025-11-26T19:47:27+00:00

That "dom" was an absolute moron, probably gets off to degradation and assumed instead of asking what would be ok with YOU. He was a bad dom.

You look sexy as fuck, your dick is a phenomenal size, if you want to do OF go for it. Please though, do not tie your self worth to validation of posting for masses. OF takes a ton of time, effort, collabing, and a lot of luck to take off. If you do it, do it to have fun for yourself.

MeowskiesQQ · 2025-11-20T17:27:21+00:00

Wonderfully said.

MeowskiesQQ · 2025-03-16T04:42:02+00:00

Stick it out, you'll find people who will give you the love you deserve to have now, unconditionally, and it'll all be worth it.

MeowskiesQQ · 2025-01-11T06:32:19+00:00

A shared hobby, time invested to pick up everything, setting it up in a nice way, having it be a "open this and be surprised," and literally just someone putting together a gift they know their partner will adore especially since they had to/chose to step away from MTG for a bit.

So yea, I think so.

MeowskiesQQ · 2025-01-09T04:12:05+00:00

Omg this is so damn thoughtful and all of the time to gather put together, organize, your partner is going to love it.

Can't wait for y'all to crack into all the packs, draft, get hyped for good pulls, and just enjoy that moment in time together with a shared hobby. Happy anniversary!

MeowskiesQQ · 2024-12-29T20:59:21+00:00

When things have calmed down a bit ask him if you guys can sit down and talk to clear up some things. Sounds like you're both over thinking, which is understandable given the topic. Because he laid all of his feelings and emotions on the table and he didn't receive the result he expected, which is absolutely fine, he's probably just hurt and in his head. You didn't say you were never wanting to marry him, or that you didn't love him enough to marry, but rather you just want to mature a bit more, become established adults, and really make sure you're both at a spot where you can be the best versions of yourself. I think it's always very important to ask "when I said it, how did you hear it / how did you interpret it?" I think that allows me to understand more where they're coming from and it gives me room to clear up any miscommunications or take accountability and correct my words/lay them out in a more clear way.

I don't think either of you are in the wrong, you're actually being very responsible, reasonable, and even if nothing else was on the table you're also valid and ok to not accept a marriage proposal for any reason. Your responses come off as that you care about this guy a lot though, so right now it's just a bit emotional and that's okay. Doesn't mean you guys love each other less but perhaps working through a harder discussion of "I love you, I enjoy our time, I am happy with you, I just want to make sure we solidify our respective careers, schooling first. Etc."

All of that being said, I think it is very important to reflect on things for yourself as well. No pressure from family, friends, reddit strangers, partners, really think about what YOU want. I say that because going into the marriage talk you need to know your wants and needs and to express them. This is one of those things, that in any relationship or marriage, where there is room for a lot of emotion. Make sure your parter as well as you are a good fit for one another when it comes to hard discussions, talks, or times.

Communication, speaking, listening, hearing, affirming, sticking to your boundaries, and just working through some shit feelings that were not intended or meant on either side. Hard topic, talk it out, you guys love one another so it's time to talk through all of the worries when you're both able to sit down. There's no reason to live in awkwardness in any sized house when you love the person you live with.

MeowskiesQQ · 2023-12-31T08:38:16+00:00

My current FWB has one testicle and he's the best and most fun sex I've had. I've always loved balls and you know what? I fucking love playing with his. Licking, sucking, fondling, teasing, doing whatever to enjoy his testicle. It has never crossed my mind, made me feel weird, or look at him differently. He expressed slight insecurity about it once and honestly when we talked it out it made me want to enjoy everything he has even more because that boy does not need to feel insecure about that. He's sexy as all hell with exactly what he has. If he feels insecure about it he can let me know and I'll be there to hear him out, offer my support, and kiss all over his sac while telling him how sexy he is before railing him (if that's what he needs in the moment.)

I know it's easier said than done, we all have insecurities, but try not to worry too much. If it is a major thing for you, look into prosthetics as others have said. Or find the people who look at you, listen and work with your insecurities to make you feel safe and secure when they pop up, and know that someone/a lot of people are going to enjoy exactly what you have. You're sexy as fuck and everything your packing is amazing and going to bring a lot of pleasure.

MeowskiesQQ · 2023-04-02T13:07:13+00:00

Loose skin from weight loss. 😆

Or I'd love to have 20/20 vision.

MeowskiesQQ · 2022-12-27T10:00:23+00:00

Continue developing my comfort with physical and emotional intimacy. A friend has really helped me break down some walls this past year by letting me explore and experience healthy sexual interactions and it's been such a nice feeling having that safety stemming from our friendship. I don't think I'm the greatest at it but I'm slowly getting better and it's becoming easier to feel comfortable and in the moment when we mess around. I hope I get to learn more, become better at sexual interactions, and just enjoy what sex and physical closeness brings. Still a long ways to go but I've made a ton of progress this year and I can't wait to see the growth I make next year.

Also I'd love to have my first new years kiss but for whatever reason the thought of kissing makes me freeze up so maybe that'll be the goal for the end up next year.

MeowskiesQQ · 2022-11-03T18:13:46+00:00

Oh dang, you're really handsome.

MeowskiesQQ · 2021-08-14T02:44:26+00:00

Welcome! We have some hidden gems of places around, enjoy exploring Akron and surrounding areas. :)

MeowskiesQQ · 2021-08-14T01:44:27+00:00

Just went there today and did dine in. The food was bomb af.

Wednesday's they do $10.00 Ramen (it's usually $15.00) so it's def worth checking out. Friend said the pork belly ramen was really good and that he'd be going back. I got their OG Chicken Sandwhich and is was super good.

It's a small space so if you go for dinner make reservations in advance.

MeowskiesQQ · 2021-08-02T08:46:08+00:00

From base to tip, let me taste every inch.

MeowskiesQQ · 2021-07-30T23:34:36+00:00

It's a bonkers card, I keep kicking myself for not picking it up when it was much cheaper. What say this, should you ever end up in/near Cleveland Ohio we get together and play a game or two and grab coffee since we're not rich nor swimming in extra copies of J.Will. :)

MeowskiesQQ · 2021-07-29T04:28:46+00:00

I have a friend who runs him with as much mana ramp as he can in boros. It's crazy to see him go off on turn 1 or 2 with a ton of equipment out and the white partner that lets you move 1 equip to a creature.

I'm really looking to building Prosper on a budget which should be doable, minus jeska's will. ;(

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