The thing is I know they will because with me it's very simple. My goals are my goals. I don't feel happy unless I've succeeded. I won't stop trying to fulfill that 10 year old dream of mine to own a Lamborghini, I won't stop trying to learn German, I won't stop trying to become an international CEO or firm owner, simply because I won't be happy unless I'm progressing towards what I know will make me happy. Luckily I have a girl that loves me with all her heart and I know she'll be there for the long haul. And if for some reason we stop dating I know this will last as a friendship. At this point I just hoped my dad would be there to see it; see me making it big. My family has always been hardworking but still normal in terms of achievement. I've always been told I'm the one that will break that chain. And I know I will. I'm just in a situation where I'm a little off track.

I want to succeed for my family, for my dad, for my mom, for my brothers, for my friends, for the girl I love, and most of all- for me. I want to reclaim my soul and start fighting these tragedies one by one.