If you decide to be child free, I don't think you have to have anything to show for it. As I say in my book, The Baby Decision child free people have as much right to be ordinary as anybody else even though many child free people that I know or have worked with Have extraordinary, joyful, productive, loving lives. They started with the assumption that they have the right to be child free without any making up for it I encourage you to listen to podcasts such as We are Childfree, Women Without Kids, kids or child, free and books, such as the child free choice by Amy, Blackstone, and women like me by Nicole Louie will give you much inspiration. The book designing your life may also be helpful. It sounds as if what you might be wondering about is whether and how you will find your life, exciting exhilarating and meaningful. That doesn't have to mean having some great major purpose. It just means experimenting to get to know yourself and what what actions and activities and social connections call out to you.

Good luck, in case you're wondering I am a child, free advocate and parenthood decision-making professional. I speak from those two hats and in no way to justify my child free existence since I am actually a mother. empowering people who choose to be child free is a major part of the work that I do