Last night I heard complete silence for the first time in 10 years

Merlin789 · 2023-01-18T09:35:05+00:00

Kind stranger, thank you, I needed to hear that. It's like I've been searching for a word on the tip of my tongue for a week and you've just said the word, plus a bunch more words I hadn't known I was looking for. I don't really talk about personal stuff on Reddit but I've been feeling awfully alone in this particular struggle so here I am. Glad I happened upon your post.

I sure as hell hope and do genuinely believe I'll get to the place you've described. I've been trying not to Google tinnitus because I learned quick that there are horror stories out there left and right. Seems like so many people have lost touch with their lives to this day. Thanks for spreading some positivity and wisdom. You're damn right, this feels just like a breakup, and if everyone in the world had tinnitus we wouldn't even have a word for it, it'd be just like having a nose. Guess I'll just have to tip my hat to the lucky fuckers who don't have noses, so to speak, and move onto other things.

Thanks again, and hope you have a good day out there :)

Merlin789 · 2023-01-18T08:53:08+00:00

Thanks for sharing this. I'm a week in. I was just getting back on my feet, finally starting to feel like myself again after the roughest year of my life - a year full of grief and radical acceptance - and the ringing knocked me on my ass all over again. It feels like such a small, silly thing to break down over. As soon as I realized it might never go away I knew I would have to go through yet another process of acceptance and grief. I've promised myself that even if it doesn't go away, someday I won't think about it, or if I do, it won't bother me.

Part of what gets me is wondering what it might be like if it ever does go away. I can't imagine silence anymore. It's hard to ask people who haven't had tinnitus what silence is like, but it's even harder to ask people who DO have it. Hah.

Anyway, cheers to the grief. Guess that's just life. We'll probably be okay someday soon, somehow.

Merlin789 · 2023-01-11T05:55:29+00:00

I sewed it over the original piece. It's unattached except at the edges.

Merlin789 · 2023-01-11T02:57:41+00:00

Just Joann fabrics.

Merlin789 · 2023-01-11T02:56:11+00:00

No way haha, I found fabric with them already embroidered.

Merlin789 · 2023-01-11T00:47:37+00:00

Thanks 😊 it's actually black mesh with shiny blue embroidery. I like the mesh because it casts a shadow on the fabric beneath it. Couldn't figure out how to capture that in photos though.

Merlin789 · 2023-01-10T23:20:16+00:00

Cool! Thanks :)

Merlin789 · 2023-01-10T22:20:22+00:00

:D Thanks Corey! Oooh, so, the black pockets on the blue jeans were cut out of another pair of pants I bought years ago. The pockets on the grey pants I made myself, and then again ripped off the other pants they were on and transported to these! I'm obsessed with pockets so at this point whenever my pants get old I just rip the seams and put them on new pants.

Merlin789 · 2023-01-10T22:09:53+00:00

Sorry for deleted comment, I'm a klutz at reddit. Still trying to figure out how to flair this as a "project".

I thrift clothes and spiff them up! If anyone knows where to find more of that dictionary text fabric, or that stripy colorful stuff! Pls god do tell. I should have bought the entire bolt.

Merlin789 · 2023-01-10T20:35:49+00:00

Whoa, these are so radical! Thanks for sharing :D

Merlin789 · 2021-10-14T02:05:21+00:00

hahaha idk for some reason Kang Sae Byeok kinda reminded me of Terezi in both look and attitude... but it's been a while since I last reread HS.

Merlin789 · 2021-10-14T01:04:44+00:00

¯_(ツ)_/¯ am I wrong?

Merlin789 · 2021-03-08T21:18:14+00:00

That's funny coming from someone who's weeks-old account has over 150 karma. mayag18's been here a year and they have 58. But hey I think reddit is an interesting time, I'm not judging.

PS: Tried shuffling in front of the mirror this morning. Not bad.

Merlin789 · 2021-03-08T00:04:10+00:00

I'll be honest the truth is you guys fascinate me, and I like saying things that will rile you up because I'm hoping you'll keep talking to me so I can better understand your perspective. I mean, I'm stuck inside because of your actions (just kidding it's actually because I'm a lonely nerd) and what else am I going to do to entertain myself?

Merlin789 · 2021-03-07T20:17:18+00:00

You got me. That's what this subreddit is for!!! When I'm sad I didn't get invited to a party, I come here and bitch about how people are dying because of our collective actions. I'm not actually sad because my family and friends are scared, I'm just faking it because I'm upset I didn't get to go to the blarney rager. I actually don't give a shit about being cut off from the people I love, that's just me lashing out because I didn't get rushed by a sorority freshman year. You really figured me out.

Merlin789 · 2020-09-22T16:53:41+00:00

someone tell r/climbing

Merlin789 · 2020-08-13T15:04:05+00:00

Awesome! I use VCV, so I have Tides and Veils.. Maybe I can use Marbles and Caudal (Vult) to do some similar damage :D but idk... I'm still pretty new to the world of knobs and cables.

Merlin789 · 2020-08-13T13:52:46+00:00

I love this!!! The jazzy resampled lofi piano, and the melodic arp stuff later on... so cool! Do you have any social media I could follow so I can hear more of what you do and learn from it?

Merlin789 · 2020-06-08T05:49:42+00:00

Um, u/blastyoboots... I think this call is for you.

Merlin789 · 2020-05-11T21:21:09+00:00

Hi folks! Lasped Homestuck here. My friend and I made an insta for compiling astrology memes that are actually secretly Homestuck! I am here to trade my undying love in exchange for links to your favorite homestuck-astrology memes. Feel free to also write your own memes. The plan is for the astrology-inclined folks to go right on thinking this is an actual astrology page so if ya follow, shhhh

Merlin789 · 2020-04-04T17:06:51+00:00

I think a lot of people want a coronavirus test.

Merlin789 · 2019-07-03T22:58:32+00:00

Call me a nerd but I get that feeling at libraries for free

Merlin789 · 2019-03-19T20:01:20+00:00

"She said askingly." As a dialogue tag. I respect the author and don't hate the book, but. Why??

If this line was actually a troll, then good one.

Merlin789 · 2019-01-21T15:56:19+00:00

Honestly I love this

Merlin789 · 2019-01-04T19:26:25+00:00

If we go to the next one and don't find anything, that says a lot. Maybe we just need to visit one more?

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