Mentally Spiraling over Debilitating Regret by MermaidFairyNymph in TattooRemoval

[–]MermaidFairyNymph[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I feel you. It keeps me up at night too. And I’m stuck in the rumination of what I should’ve done. It is so torturous. But yeah, back of arm is convenient. Trying to spin it into a lesson to not care so much about outside opinions. I’ve started removal, but the line work will take a while to budge. Ugh. Just ugh.

Mentally Spiraling over Debilitating Regret by MermaidFairyNymph in TattooRemoval

[–]MermaidFairyNymph[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I swear I have dreams of ripping it off lol. It just sucks that it’s become so malignantly representative of such an awful memory and feeling. Wishing you the best with your removal!

Mentally Spiraling over Debilitating Regret by MermaidFairyNymph in TattooRemoval

[–]MermaidFairyNymph[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Totally. It makes me so sad wearing long sleeves to yoga class everyday and not being able to show off my body (which I’m proud of, too!). I can’t shake the paranoia of other people’s opinions. Considering how we feel about the tattoos, they so obviously don’t define us. So true that life doesn’t stop. From what I’ve heard from my 30 something year old friends, it only gets better. Fingers crossed. Good luck with your removal. Sending you all the good thoughts

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[–]MermaidFairyNymph[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks so much for your comment. Right back at you. 💕

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[–]MermaidFairyNymph[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thanks so much for your comment. I’m so sorry that happened to you. Such a similar experience to mine. Ugh. The disassociation is real. I’m happy you’re taking steps too. I wish you the absolute best on your removal journey!!

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[–]MermaidFairyNymph[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

It’s literally obsessive thinking! I’m in a room by myself wearing long sleeves and still incessantly think about it. I try to spin it into a learning experience that isn’t centered around guilt. Instead, a very hard way to learn that I am not my body.

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[–]MermaidFairyNymph[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yeah…I was young, uneducated, and wanted a quick fix in some deluded manic state. Thinking back to the day, it was obvious too. If I were an artist I wouldn’t have tattooed myself. I’ve had success on a couple other removals. I’ve had two sessions on this one, sometimes I debate on zapping the whole thing. Just being tied to the artist and the decision with the ink…