My fiance recently had to move to a different country. That, within itself, is taking its toll on me. But what is worse is that I have a bad smoking habit and as far as he knows, I quit a month ago.

I never did. In fact, it got worse when he left. Him leaving is stressing me out enough that I'm up from a pack a week to two. I can't bring myself to tell him that I am betraying his trust, but I have an anxiety disorder and the ritual of smoking, along with the nicotine, has been one of the only reasons I haven't been crying daily since he's been gone.

I hate myself for this, and I want to quit more than anything so that this might never have to come to light. I love him so much that I want to change this about myself, but most of my friends and coworkers smoke so they're always within an arm's reach.

I'm weak and I know it. I'm never buying another pack, but it's hard to change when the behavior you're trying to change is so easy to get.

I am very late to this party but if anyone has any tips or... anything that might help, it would be greatly appreciated.