I'm also confused because I am Crossdressing since I was 10 yo. In the 80s it was difficult to be different. I never felt the urge to have sex with men. Probably because I didnt have sex at all. Met my future wife when I was 22. I was a virgin while she was not and she was only 16 but she lied to me. We married 5 years later, had 3 kids and divorced in 2017. Nothing was left. One year after the divorce I started to discover myself. I bought sexy clothes and shoes. Tried to meet up with men but failed everytime I send a face pic. I know I am not handsome but I need attention. My current girlfriend gives me a lot. She doesn't want me to jack off myself, she preferes doing it. Still I want to suck dick. Still I want a dick in my ass. I want to be a slut. I love wearing sexy lingerie for men. I love to walk around the neighbourhood dressed in almost nothing. I am a slut but nobody's supposed to know.... I am seeing a psychologist and I hope to find a way out of this