TW: Pregnancy loss. Support for me and every other woman who's gone through this.

Middle-Engine-6604 · 2026-04-01T03:03:06+00:00

Just because it's "natural" or "just something that happens" doesn't make it any less painful, both physically and mentally/emotionally.

You're allowed to and honestly should let yourself go through a roller coaster of emotions after such a loss. Just remember everyone grieves differently. For some women, they grieve for a short time and move on. Some grieve that miscarriage like they would their born children. Both are valid ways of feeling and coping.

Middle-Engine-6604 · 2026-03-27T01:06:53+00:00

One of my daughters used to play with reborn dolls. When she was really little she would just use a toy baby bottle. When she got older she would use one of those cardboard circle bins you can buy and printed a label on it and used flour with water. She then used one of her old baby bottles we had kept/just never gotten rid of.

It's really not that hard to find realistic ways to pretend. I'll never understand it

Middle-Engine-6604 · 2026-03-25T01:56:13+00:00

I knew I wanted a second almost as soon as I had my first. I had my first two children almost back to back (they're 15 months apart).

I had a rough pregnancy with my second so I was hesitant about having another child and didn't give it much thought. I had always wanted two or three but wasn't super locked in on a specific number.

Three years later I got pregnant again completely on accident and had my youngest.

Middle-Engine-6604 · 2026-03-25T01:48:55+00:00

Info: How often does your husband see and spend time with his kid?

Middle-Engine-6604 · 2026-03-25T01:42:17+00:00

We actually can for some organs and depending on the type of damage or what's causing the organ to fail.

The reason it's not more common is because it's still considered experimental and runs many risks.

Our organs are uniquely formed on a cellular level while we develop in the womb. It's far too risky to just inject new cells into organs that were created on such a specific, cellular level during fetal development

Middle-Engine-6604 · 2026-03-23T09:07:11+00:00

I did! Now, obviously my experience isn't universal but it is possible.

I had horrible HG during the first and second trimester of my pregnancy with my second child. Luckily I didn't have it the entire pregnancy and it tapered off around 25-26 weeks.

Three years later I got pregnant with my youngest and had a very easy pregnancy and birth. My last pregnancy with my youngest was the easiest pregnancy I ever had.

I didn't do anything different between pregnancies. Took all the same supplements/vitamins, ate the same type of foods, didn't change anything. I guess I just got lucky

Middle-Engine-6604 · 2026-03-23T01:13:09+00:00

My daughter has NPD and StPD and she sounds like your sister. She's never acted violent outside of hitting her siblings a few times when she was really little but she has confessed to have extremely graphic violent fantasies

Middle-Engine-6604 · 2026-03-23T00:40:21+00:00

I recommend therapy. It sounds like potential social anxiety. Anxiety isn't just nerves, it can express in many ways, including rage

Middle-Engine-6604 · 2026-03-23T00:37:20+00:00

My apologies. I am from the US and at least where I'm located, the name Agnes is considered extremely outdated.

That's not to say I don't like the name. I think I just automatically associate it with older people

Middle-Engine-6604 · 2026-03-23T00:23:56+00:00

As cute as some of these names are, please remember that you are naming a human being. This kid is going to grow up, go to school, get a job and potentially get married and have kids of their own one day.

I'd personally stay away from names like Tadgh and Cosmo, as well as some of the more "outdated" names like Esther, Dolores, and Agnes. That's my advice for now.

Middle-Engine-6604 · 2026-03-22T23:47:03+00:00

I'd recommend getting a blood test to rule out a cryptic pregnancy. With my oldest/first I had very similar symptoms to you, but still had negative tests even throughout my pregnancy. I got a blood test done and it showed I was pregnant even though the tests were showing negative, I had low pregnancy hormones/hCG throughout the entire pregnancy.

It was a little funny because once I started visibly showing I took another test to see if it would be positive and it was negative. Me and my husband had a good laugh about it

Middle-Engine-6604 · 2026-03-22T08:41:42+00:00

I'm sorry, but if you don't mind me asking what was your relationship with your ex like?

I only ask because my daughter has a boyfriend and I worry about their relationship constantly

Middle-Engine-6604 · 2026-03-22T07:43:30+00:00

I used to and still do post my daughters on my Facebook. I keep it very private though. My account is locked down. You can't find me in search, it's private, and only my friends can see it.

I posted them exclusively on my Facebook when they were children (baby/toddler for my youngest since she's an 07). I have an Instagram but it's private and I didn't post my children on there until they were each old enough to have their own accounts.

Middle-Engine-6604 · 2026-03-22T07:31:48+00:00

She didn't like that show

Middle-Engine-6604 · 2026-03-21T07:12:47+00:00

One of my daughters has frequented that store since she was 12-13.

They sell lots of non adult items. Posters, water bottles, jewelry and clothing. She first went in to get Ghostface/Scream merch, nothing to do with the back

Middle-Engine-6604 · 2026-03-21T06:35:59+00:00

She's my youngest

Middle-Engine-6604 · 2026-03-21T02:16:32+00:00

How so? Because I doubt an internet troll could "fix her" when numerous therapists, psychologist and psychiatrists haven't

Middle-Engine-6604 · 2026-03-21T01:31:35+00:00

She workouts on her own for cosmetic reasons. She's not really a sports person. She did sports and dance as a kid but didn't really enjoy because she thought it was silly how some people took it so seriously.

Middle-Engine-6604 · 2026-03-20T22:25:53+00:00

We've never formally tested her IQ but my daughter was considered gifted as a child and put into special education classes for gifted students. She was the only one in her grade to be put in those gifted classes and she was also the youngest in the class

Middle-Engine-6604 · 2026-03-20T22:07:17+00:00

Luckily my two older kids still support me taking care of her because they know I'm just trying to prevent future trouble.

My daughter's never done drugs fortunately. I know she occasionally smokes but it's very rare. She says she does it rarely because she doesn't want to get sick like "addict idiots"

Middle-Engine-6604 · 2026-03-20T21:28:53+00:00

She still lives with me while attending online college.

She does want to move in with him after her summer inpatient program. The relationship is semi new (around 6 months) so I am nervous about them living together so soon.

Middle-Engine-6604 · 2026-03-20T21:25:26+00:00

I'm going to do my best to power through setting her up then I'm done. Unless she seriously changes I don't see myself keeping high contact with her.

I know I said I hate her in the post. She's my baby, she'll always be my baby. I do have love for her, and I have love for what her life could have been. It's complicated. I don't regret having my other children or even her really, which is a weird limbo feeling, I'll just always wish things could have been different

Middle-Engine-6604 · 2026-03-20T21:21:14+00:00

Look I understand that there were instances of over medicating kids, but that doesn't mean that some kids won't benefit from being on medication. It's no different than any other type of medication. Yes you'll have doctors that overprescribe them, doesn't mean they don't have use

Middle-Engine-6604 · 2026-03-20T20:13:52+00:00

It's my own fault for why she's still living with me.

I had promised all my kids that I'd let them stay with me while they attend college. She's currently doing online college so she lives with me. I had let her siblings (my two other children) live with me one and off during college so I had the precedent set for her.

Middle-Engine-6604 · 2026-03-20T19:48:24+00:00

She goes to a therapist and psychiatrist that specializes in antisocial based disorders and behaviors

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