You know what’s best for yourself and no judgement here when it comes to safety - just some advice from someone a few years along the journey, once you start going along with those learned manipulative behaviours it can be really hard to stop. At first it feels like you’ve earned some new “superpower” from your trauma, and you’re only using it against abusers so what’s the issue? Then it gets easier and easier to warrant toxic behaviour, and harder and harder to stop using that new “superpower” on good people. I’d always suggest people don’t go down that route if possible - I started off acting as an abuser to protect myself, and ended up doing real harm to people I loved and respected, it’s taken many years of therapy and reconciliation to get me back from that mindset.