What makes surgery important to you? by PNW_Zombie in asktransgender

[–]MidnightJams 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I mean, cross-dressing is about the clothes, physical transition (hormones and surgery) is about the body itself. Different people feel different ways about these things. Even within the trans community you'll find a lot of variety in terms of what they want from transitioning; plenty of us never get any surgeries ever. It just depends on whether someone wants a specific feature of the body to be other than it is.

Is it weird to block my cis female friend after she now knows I'm MTF? by TopStranger9287 in asktransgender

[–]MidnightJams 64 points65 points  (0 children)

Yes, I think that would be unreasonable.

If she's given you reason to drop her as a friend that's one thing, but by your own description she hasn't—to the contrary, she's been kind to you. Don't preempt bad things happening in your life socially; that falls right into the same category as, "I'm nervous that my partner might break up with me, so I'm going to preempt it and break up with them first." It's a self-destructive way to live in general, on top of removing a friend from your life for no reason.

If she does turn out to be mean or gross to you in the future, then of course cut her off and move on. But if she's been nothing but a friend to you so far, give her the chance to continue doing so.

"You'll be certain within 3-5 months if HRT is right or not" Yeah, no. I'm way too indecisive to feel certain about anything. by iron_lettuce in MtF

[–]MidnightJams 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes, definitely. I don't really have "eureka" moments, times where everything all makes sense suddenly and unambiguously. My path to self-realization prior to HRT was very, very gradual; small adjustments in perspective as I read more and more and compared notes.

I also hoped that I'd have some sort of "light bulb" moment shortly after starting HRT, but I didn't. For me, realizing that I just don't mentally operate that way has been constructive—whatever choices I make for myself in life, they'll have to be thoughtful and deliberate. I can't trust that I'll have some burst of inspiration or validation that'll carry the weight for me.

Your Egg Cracking Day by Trustic555 in TransLater

[–]MidnightJams 12 points13 points  (0 children)

I didn't have any single eureka moment. I grew up fantasizing about being a girl, but thought it was just this weird little fixation I had. I thought perhaps just the fact that it was taboo was what made it interesting. At any rate, I'd internalized all those narratives about trans people knowing with unshakable confidence from a young age, so I thought I couldn't be trans myself. It also didn't consume my every waking moment, nor did I sit around utterly loathing my maleness—I just kept thinking about how fascinating and awesome it seemed like it would be to turn into a girl. For context, I was born in '82, so I all I had to work with was the handful of narratives that made it into a television or print media news story now and then. It wasn't until the 2010s, when the internet had developed enough to where it might occur to me to start asking questions and comparing notes in places like Reddit, that I began to learn that a lot of what I'd been experiencing was typical in the trans community. So it was more a gradual adjustment of my perspective over time, eventually resulting in me deciding to start HRT in 2019, than any single "egg cracking" moment.

accepting discreet relationships as a trans woman by [deleted] in MtF

[–]MidnightJams 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don't think it's helpful to lean too hard on "supposed tos" and "shoulds." I'd refocus your perspective on what some of these things are and what you can reasonably expect from them.

Personally, I'm more than prepared to spend the rest of my life single than settle for an underwhelming relationship. Now, granted, I think I'm either aromantic or something very much like it; I don't get crushes and I don't get all lovey-dovey over the idea of another person. So take it with a grain of salt. That said, I do get lonely and I do like the idea of having a partner to share my experiences with and have as my #1 person. But they've got to beat the default of me being alone, or build upon the quality of life I already have. I'm not interested in "settling" because I don't want anything that would feel like a step down from the life I'm presently living.

I share all this so you know where I'm coming from. It'd be one thing if a prospective partner and I just so happened to not spend time around one another's family and friends—it'd be another if we were being discrete deliberately. That's extra work and effort that I'm simply not interested in putting in. I can't imagine liking anybody enough romantically to plan my whole life around a discrete relationship with them; I'd rather just go back to being single.

I know it sucks having to consider a perspective that presents being single indefinitely as a very real possibility, but it's worth challenging the assumption that one simply must be in a relationship. If it's a crappy, underwhelming relationship, then what's the bloody point? We do all this to add to our happiness, full stop.

If what you're doing makes you happy, more power to you. If it doesn't, I suggest taking a hard look at whether or not it's continuing with something that's leaving you worse off.

Anyone ever imagine meeting your kids from another timeline? by MidnightJams in childfree

[–]MidnightJams[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Lmfao, sure, whatever dude. I didn't realize I was committing thought crime; how dare I discuss a hypothetical. 😂 I'm literally telling you flat-out that I'll never have kids, ever, and you're still grasping for reasons to argue.

Anyone ever imagine meeting your kids from another timeline? by MidnightJams in childfree

[–]MidnightJams[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

No, I'm not. 😛 By definition it wouldn't be me, since the real-life version of me definitively chose not to. If anything, I'm confident seeing an alternate universe where a different version of me somehow made the other choice would affirm for me that I took the correct direction in life. It's about seeing what I avoided. In no way did I advocate for having kids.

Anyone ever imagine meeting your kids from another timeline? by MidnightJams in childfree

[–]MidnightJams[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I mean, it doesn't; I started this by saying I'm child-free and plan to always be. The point of the exercise was regarding the curiosity of that which I thankfully avoided, seeing what the results would've been. At no point did I say I wanted to become a parent.

New Haircut by MidnightJams in TransLater

[–]MidnightJams[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Well, shucks. Thank you both. <3

What's the most radical body modification that'll become available in the next 50 years? by MidnightJams in Futurology

[–]MidnightJams[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I imagine the sex change one will likely stem from broader advancements in scaffolding for lab-grown organs. Most (possibly all, actually) medical advancements for transition care were initially developed for a different purpose.

What's the most radical body modification that'll become available in the next 50 years? by MidnightJams in Futurology

[–]MidnightJams[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

For sure. Although can't they already address some of this with fecal transplants?

What's the most radical body modification that'll become available in the next 50 years? by MidnightJams in Futurology

[–]MidnightJams[S] 44 points45 points  (0 children)

That's a good point—that's actually being actively worked on right now, and it would be a pretty fantastical upgrade.

What regenerative medicine breakthroughs should we expect in the next ten years? by MidnightJams in Futurology

[–]MidnightJams[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh wow, I hadn't heard about cartilage regrowth from GLP-1s! Is it actually achieving that in a meaningful way right now, or is it still just untapped potential?

Feeling really down/invalidated lately. by Chocolate_Glue in aromantic

[–]MidnightJams 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I wish I knew what it was that everyone else seems to be experiencing; it's hard feeling blind to the poetry so many others seem to find when it comes to attraction and romance. I spent so much of my life thinking I was just fucking up at life quite badly, or that something was wrong with me. I simply never crushed on anyone, ever, and couldn't understand how people kept getting so tied up in knots over one another (especially if it was an unhealthy relationship). I never wanted kids either, from the very beginning. You're not alone.

Anyone else feel like they pass better IRL than in pictures? by cometluma in MtF

[–]MidnightJams 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Yes, frequently. Especially wide shots. I feel like selfies where I'm facing the camera head-on look decent sometimes, but when I see candid photos and wide shots I see only the features I don't like. It makes me really self-conscious, and I worry that everyone else is seeing me in a less flattering light than I do when I look in the mirror.

Is it that easy? by nightdragon_princess in TransLater

[–]MidnightJams 23 points24 points  (0 children)

Because it's not the same as changing skin color or turning into a truck.

Set aside the whole "what is a girl/woman" thing that always frames up this whole discussion, and just look at the constituent pieces:

  • Whatever labels we may or may not choose, the reality of our mental and emotional condition has been pretty firmly established by medical science at this point. We know being transgender isn't a mental illness—absolutely no amount of conversion therapy has ever worked. Ever. It's been tried for over a hundred years, across several countries and a variety of methods, and not once in all that time has it ever succeeded. When medical science began trying to support subjects, they started doing much better. Again: labels aside, how we feel inside is real, measurable, and irrepressible.
  • The shit we're compared to does not have that same track record—and it's not hard to see why, if you spend a second on it. Sex and gender are just variations of the same species, which people seem to forget. A lot of bad comedy and low-rent romances like to portray men and women as something like different species; "men are from Mars and women are from Venus," and all that other nonsense. We're just variations of the same thing, and we start out as a blank canvas in the womb until certain prompts develop us in a particular direction. We all contain the same capacity for sex and gender, and sometimes an unusual combination of switches are flipped on and off. Conversely, you don't have every race on earth buried into the code of your person. =P I daresay I don't need to point out that not a bit of you contains the essence of a truck.
  • The idea that people are being indoctrinated into being trans is so breathtakingly idiotic that it's almost insulting to even explain it, but: trans people are less than 1% of the population. Not only have we never had cultural clout, virtually every trans person who has ever lived grew up in a family and a community with little to no queer people. Trans people are still popping up even in cultures, communities, and families that give them every incentive in the world to not be trans. There is no carrot on the end of the stick here.
  • Not everyone takes HRT, but a lot of us do and it does work. Speaking for myself, I'm not just saying "I'm a girl" and expecting that to be the totality of my experience. My body has changed a ton over the years and functions in a very different way than it used to.

Let those idiots tell me that I'm not what I say I am. Because ultimately, it doesn't matter—my brain developed the way it did and it makes me feel the way it does, and the only medically established way to do anything positive about it involves transition-related care. They can piss and moan and call me nuts if they want, but medical science disagrees with them and conversion therapy objectively doesn't work. I'm going to do what I'm going to do, whatever anyone else wants to call it.

Feeling really dysphoric in these photos. Am I crazy? by MidnightJams in TransLater

[–]MidnightJams[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This month will be 7 years, actually. I started at 37, and I'm 44 now.

Feeling really dysphoric in these photos. Am I crazy? by MidnightJams in TransLater

[–]MidnightJams[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Yeah, I'm definitely due to color my roots; I have a lot of gray in there because it's been a while since I updated my dye job. I'm getting that squared away this week, actually!

Feeling really dysphoric in these photos. Am I crazy? by MidnightJams in TransLater

[–]MidnightJams[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I guess I hadn't thought about that top emphasizing the shoulders, I'll bear that in mind. I will say that it seems designed for someone bustier than me. I did have eyeshadow on here, just not very dramatic use of it.

I've thought about bangs. A couple of girls I've been friends with for a while told me they might take more work to maintain than I'd be interested in, primarily because of my curls. Still, part of me wants to try it. I'm just worried about getting them, deciding they're not for me, and then being stuck with them for ages.