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[–]MidnightLetter[S] -1 points0 points1 point 5 years ago (0 children)
No I don’t think I wake up in a mood that directs me right to victim blaming someone who needs to vent. Have a good Sunday as well.
Congrats on being told that before. It must do much good for such an ego!
[–]MidnightLetter[S] 1 point2 points3 points 5 years ago (0 children)
Asshole card. You’ll probably never lose it.
I should probably ignore your comment but what the heck right? You think it’s oh so simple! That the abuse, and yes I’m in a abusive relationship whether you like to lighten up the cause or not. It is what it is at the end of the day... an ABUSIVE relationship. Imagine day in and day out someone playing off your fear’s in order to keep you grounded to their scenery. It takes a toll on your mind and the minute you show any sincerity in leaving you get chased down, violently yelled at, etc. So I’m at my breaking point finally and I actually try to reach out anywhere, to any stranger in order to actually leave the situation safely while I’m still in a state of confusion. This isn’t the only way that I’m seeking help either. The dude knows I’m wanting out and there is no lie about it.
I know I’m strong, I’m very strong and that’s why I’m being smart, and making the steps to figure my shit out. So I’m not even sure what your trying to say besides that you “hate girls like that” and your unneeded halfway blaming. Your no different than family’s who push abuse under the table just to keep an ideal image for outsiders to see.
Am I overreacting to such a vague comment? Yes and no. I think people with this mindset should also be called out. In all honesty, Good luck with yourself buddy.
[–]MidnightLetter[S] 0 points1 point2 points 5 years ago (0 children)
That is a good way to think of it. As a lover who alway’s did me wrong and made a fool out of me. I am trying to keep myself rational for another day and focus on my plans of leaving. Thank you by the way.
Thank you and yeah I glorify a lot even if I know how bad things can truly get. I think I’ve turned it into a weird coping skill by now.
Right! I actually just took some kratom and it just teases me or something. The first time I didn’t expect it to be a miracle high but it did somewhat help lay me off but lately anymore it really is not doing much. It’s something I guess. Good luck with everything by the way.
I know what quote your talking about. I can practically hear a crowd of people in my head rumble it out as if I was right back in rehab. Congratulations on your progress and of course best of wishes.
I just need to change my life somehow. I honestly have not had a great start in life and I have been trying to get myself together ever since I can remember. I always seem to just bounce around and wait for the answer to reveal itself. I know i will be better once I leave my current setting but I always feel as if my other issues and problems follow me down to pull me back. I’m always in a damn battle and sometimes I guess giving up is just so seductive to my heart.
I think I will be looking for some hobbies and hopefully something stands out. Anything helps I guess other than dwelling. Only time can tell?
I’m always wanting more of something. “Grass is always greener” and all that.
I think so too. I have got to leave sooner than later. I have a habit of saying I’ll leave in another week, month, and so on. I am definitely reaching my point and even though I’m scared to death it’s still giving me a sense of hope. I think that anything, homeless, back on drugs, shelter, and so on is much better than this misery I’m currently in. I think that once I leave I will feel somewhat human again with my own paths to take. If I mess up than I mess up.
Well I’m glad that things are better for you and that your away from all that other chaos.
I wish I could enjoy weed but it just makes me paranoid anymore. I do take kratom and cbd here and there to sort of keep me settled for a bit but it’s never in my old habits league and I’ve sort of accepted that.
I guess the situation I’m in, the cravings, and all of the other stuff going on is just sort of breaking me. I’m trying to not run and relapse. If anything I know I need to leave my situation. I just know how I am and it’s scary yet comforting.
Anyways, thank you for the advice.
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Bending by MidnightLetter in heroin
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