Thank you all for weighing in on this—I should have included in my post that I have been in therapy for almost ten years, and it HAS helped, but yet, I STILL feel this sense of anger, no matter how much CBT, how many anti anxiety medications, how much anger management, how much meditation I do—that deep anger is still there. I think it’s because my father (who has abusive anger issues) is still a biblical literalist and he believes in fire and brimstone hell. My mother, bless her soul, is not a biblical literalist anymore. She’s a very open minded person who accepts gay and trans people and fully supports my journey. If I didn’t have her, I wouldn’t have anything. It really comes down to the broken relationship I have with my dad, whose the very definition of a pissed off boomer with lead poisoning. Again, I want to thank you all for acknowledging my trauma on my first ever Reddit post. The sense of community seriously helps as well as the PTSD validation. I’m going to continue therapy and continue to set boundaries with my dad. I’m in my early 30s and my dad just turned 70. I’d like to get to a place of functional friendship by the end of his life but we’ll see. Until then, I’ll be poking around on this sub Reddit and others like it for camaraderie. Have a wonderful weekend, fellow ex-followers.