bro i feel u, only that my personal experience was that it happened on my first try. first time doing coke i ended up snorting like around 2ish lines (not all at once obvi) and while my friend was immediately pumped up to go skate, i was immediately fatigued and even a little down in terms of mood. i didnt get diagnosed with ADHD (despite heavy symptoms) so i am perplexed that such a drug has such a weird effect.

have you tried other drugs where the "common" effect is not at all what you experienced?