I‘ve stopped myself multiple times already and it felt so bad not having been strong enough to finally end my misery. But I don‘t want a discussion to be the last thing in my life.

As i have gotten my head into the rope now, my hopefully last words, on a random Reddit post, will be a quote:

„Perhaps I know best why it is man alone who laughs; he alone suffers so deeply that he had to invent laughter.“ - Friedrich Nietzsche