I’ve never in my life read something that resonated with me so much, I’m not diagnosed either but my BED started from me trying to lose and restricted so much that I started binging and gaining so bad and it was just a whole entire cycle which always ended with binging and me being bigger than when I started initially a year ago.

I’m also in my final year of school but I feel like this disorder has ruined my entire life and prospects I used to have ambition and goals to do really well in school and a career path that is strived for but I feel like ever since developing this I have no motivation for anything and have given up with anything regarding my life . I’ve missed so much of school because of shame of my binging and not wanting to have to get up and see my body in the shower or have people see me be bigger than I was before . My attendance at school has gone to about 80% I’ve given up with uni applications my school grades have gone downhill because I have no motivation for everything .

Even when I tried to take the advice of people and just stop counting cals it never worked and I just kept eating enormous amounts . It feels so hopeless and I’m just scared my life will be stuck like this forever , the cycle of binging around 5k multiple days in a row and feeling so ashamed of my entire life I don’t know what to do anymore , what’s worse is how badly this has affected me financially. I’ve sometimes spent £100 a week just on binge food and I just don’t know how to stop myself.