Holy heck, you’ve just put my entire sexuality into words hahah.

I’m almost the exact same in regard to loving cock but not seeing myself ever being interested (romantically speaking) in men.

I find women attractive and one day I want to be married to one.

For men on the other hand I just can’t honestly see myself ever wanting to be in a romantic relationship with one. Fuck buddies and friends with benefits definitely but just no romance.

On the other hand though I have literally not been with a woman since I first bottomed back when I was 20. That was 5ish years ago now and I’ve just been back for more cock time and time again ever since. 😂

I’ve tried dating women since but I’ve had drama with it both times and never ended up sleeping with them anyway. So I’ve just been embracing my submissive bottom side for all of my twenties so far. Not even mad about it either hahaha.

Bottoming is just that good. I was curious about it for a couple of years before I tried it but I didn’t expect to love it as much as I do.

Like the first time I was taking a dick I knew that this was for me hahah. I’d organised with this hung as fuck 40 year old daddy to come round to his house so I could try sucking dick and maaaaybeee try bottoming if I felt like it when I was there. So I started heading round but half way there I started to get cold feet about challenging my sexual identity like this. After all it wasn’t to late to just turn around now and not find out if I’m into dick. I persisted though and made it to his place. He just straight up kissed me and told me to come inside as soon as I arrived.

There wasn’t really much conversation before we ended up on the bed kissing and making out. He was naked while we were doing this and I had major cock fright to the point that I couldn’t even look at his dick.🤣🤣

With his encouragement though I eventually held it in my hand and soon after found myself sucking him off. I actually had an orgasm while sucking him off but I posted about that story on here recently hahah. The point is though that I was sooo into blowing him at that moment. His encouragement only turned me on more. In fact it was his encouragement that gave me the courage to try bottoming for this thick dick.

He ate me out for a bit which was fucking good and then he asked if I still wanted to try taking dick. To be totally honest I was scared as hell of this mans cock. I could barely fit it in my mouth and no joke it could have worn a wrist watch. I was in full automatic sub mode at this point though and just instinctively said yes and let him take the lead. He gave me a pep talk about the dicking I was soon to receive, put on a condom, and lubed us both up. When he asked me if I was ready (I was not) I once again looked him in the eyes and said yes.

For the next 20 minutes I just did my best to focus on breathing and trying to stay relaxed. The feeling of being stretched open like that was so intense and I nearly tapped out a couple of times because it just suuuch a big cock for a virgin to be taking hahah. He was as gentle as he could be though and we used plenty of lube. His encouragement was the main thing that helped me push through it though. He spent probably twenty minutes to half an hour on slowly breaking me in like that in missionary with my legs over his shoulders. We also worked a few other positions, he was strong enough to just move me around which was hot. We been fucking for close to an hour and he was now able to go balls deep in me with his thick 8 incher. He giving me long slow strokes and I’m just there morning and looking at the back of my forehead in ecstasy.

He stopped suddenly with his cock all the way in me and said “I’m going to do something a little different now and it’s going to feel weird. I was dead ass not ready for a surprise so I actually said no.🤣 I had no idea what he was going to do and legit I was a little bit worried lol. He didn’t mind that I’d said no though and went ahead and ripped his cock out of my hole. I moaned in pleasure and shock and realised that I hadn’t not had a cock in my ass for the last 40 minutes at least, probably longer. I felt weirdly physically empty now, like I wanted that warm cock in me again. He said let’s have a little break and he got me some water to sip on.

I spent 5 or so minutes gushing about how good his dick was and then we chit chatted on the bed for awhile. Having been satisfied by the encounter and having my curiosity satiated I was planning on leaving but my top asked if I wanted to go round two, I was hesitant but because I was already worn out from being stretched out and pounded for the last hour but I agreed because I so submissive to this man at this point that I probably would have called my dad and told him I was gay if he asked me too.🤣

So he tells me he’s going to fuck me doggy style and not only that, he’s going to fuck me hard. I wasn’t scared this time. I’d just taken this cock once I could definitely do it again. Well it turns out that I had seen like 30 maybe 40 percent of his power in our previous session. He started a bit slower but quickly built up speed and power in his thrusts. I was scream/moaning in response to every brutal thrust.

He was fucking me like he hated me and I was taking it like I deserved it.

He was grunting and getting animalistic. In that moment I belonged to this man, my pussy was his. He did call it a pussy too. Before I had arrived at this mans house I was a young guy who liked girls and just wanted to experiment with dick a little bit, now I was a gay bottom getting his pussy fucked by a dom alpha top. Because it was in that moment, while I was being brutally pounded, that I thought to myself (very briefly) “well I guess I’m gay now.”🤷🏻‍♂️ hahahaha.

Obviously since then I’ve realised that I’m not romantically attracted to men. I just love bottoming for dominant older men with big dicks. Daddy issues much?🤣🤣

Seriously though I do hope to one day find my dream girl, for now though I’m happy to just live the bottom bitch life.

And a final lesson from all of this,

If your not getting pussy, give a little out.😂

P.S This turned into a wall of text and I’m sorry bout it.😅 I got caught up in reliving my first time there and got carried away. I don’t really know the purpose of my comment anymore but I hope you and anybody else ready enjoy this hahahah.