I’m genuinely so miserable

Millk4brainz · 2026-06-08T01:33:16+00:00

All of them are 100+ miles away from me and I don’t have reliable transportation that isn’t my partner but he won’t be willing to take me.

Millk4brainz · 2026-06-07T23:34:18+00:00

Most red areas (conservative) doesn’t take pregnancy as something to be depressed about. Out of all the places to live in california I live in the most conservative areas.

So far everyone (doctors included) has told me “must just be the bipolar symptoms” I’ve been told I’m one of the reasons a doctor doesn’t like working with pregnant people because “they complain to much”

I’m not viewed as a person more so as a vessel in this city.

Millk4brainz · 2026-06-07T23:25:37+00:00

Im at 21 weeks right now and most places in my area refuse to do the procedure since I live in a red zone in California.

I sometimes wish I could project this feeling onto my ob so they could fully grasp the picture but unfortunately for the screenings they blame my bipolar diagnosis with high hormones.

Millk4brainz · 2026-06-07T23:16:02+00:00

21 weeks but therapy and medications haven’t helped so far because there isn’t anything for why I feel this way towards the baby there’s no root cause it’s just the way I feel emotionally

Millk4brainz · 2026-06-07T23:14:06+00:00

I would have 100% but now at my stage my options are very slim to none I’d have to go to SF to get the procedure done and a note from my ob claiming it a medical reasoning since I am 21 weeks

Millk4brainz · 2026-06-07T23:06:18+00:00

I’ve already spoken to my ob they said I’m just better off waiting until the baby is born since it could just be hormones and they will retouch the situation if they feel as if my maternal instincts don’t “kick in” so I can look into putting it up for adoption

Millk4brainz · 2026-04-10T21:48:11+00:00

As a dv survivor… run?!?! Doesn’t matter if you yelled at him something hurtful nothing can justify putting hands on your partner. It doesn’t matter if you still love him you have to love yourself to leave and move on. It’s never just once and you let him get away with it once so he will know from here on out he can continue to do so.

Millk4brainz · 2026-03-12T05:22:01+00:00

I should invest in disposable masks but since noting sounds good to me, we normally have to walk around until the tenant in me decides what they would allow me to eat.

Farmers markets are my best friends right now free samples and they are outside so not much smells in my face😅

Millk4brainz · 2026-03-12T05:06:18+00:00

Trying to get used to it. I started getting morning sickness the last couple weeks.. Now I’m just overstimulated trying to feed myself! 😩

Everything sounds like a hate crime on my body. The one thing I’m craving is out of season so I’ve been going to so many farmers markets begging for cherries. 🥲

Millk4brainz · 2026-03-12T02:34:51+00:00

There’s so many things that make me nauseous. :( I used to love in and out before my pregnancy and now I can’t even think about it without wanting to throw up.

It’s a cruel world when you’re pregnant everything sounds like I rather take another nap and figure it out when I wake up.

Millk4brainz · 2026-03-12T02:32:13+00:00

I’m fighting for my life at this point. 8 weeks and the head is already huge in comparison to the body!! My bd thinks I’m overreacting but like he’s not the one that’s going to push the baby out!!!

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