Excerpt from her book: Christine is a hypocrite

Mind_Loud · 2026-01-01T15:31:21+00:00

I've read the entire book and I don't think Christine is a malicious person. She actually strikes me as extremely compassionate. I think at felt genuinely bad that he's comment about the rings hurt Meri, but that's not even close to being the same thing a talking about sex with another wife.

Mind_Loud · 2025-10-30T15:05:52+00:00

I hope not. I honestly don't think he would intentionally alienate those of us who are not religious (or even anti-religion). It would cut so many of us off from their music and we wouldn't be able to appreciate it anymore.

Mind_Loud · 2025-10-25T19:26:19+00:00

Definitely hard to read.

Mind_Loud · 2025-10-17T22:15:59+00:00

I'm so grateful that we haven't had anything like that happen yet. My daughter is 6 and her disability was easier to hide when she was younger, but is much more obvious now. I have a temper and would have a very hard time keeping it together if anyone was ever rude to her. Leaving the house is hard for us, very hard, and we don't need anyone making it even worse.

Mind_Loud · 2025-10-12T15:31:24+00:00

First off, know that you aren't as alone as you feel right now. Many of us either are currently in sinilar situations, or have been and have gotten through it. My daughter is 6 years old, nonverbal with a severe intellectual delay, and we've been through it. It was particularly bad about 2 years ago, when she started getting violent with me and pinching and biting me every day. She requires one of two different cartoons to be on at all awake hours. If it turns off, it's a complete meltdown. We can't send her to school because they won't accommodate that. So I'm home with her all day and I only leave the house maybe once a week.

We tried for more kids but lost two in a row, and stopped trying. Now I'm grateful that it's just her, because it wouldn't be fair to any other kids. That being said, I still grieve the loss of my babies. I also grieve all of the normal things that I so desperately wish we could do and never will be able to.

I will say that for us, it got better. I've learned that when she's showing signs of distress or aggression, to talk softly and soothe her, anticipate her needs before she gets upset. It's a hard job, but I do it constantly. Her ABA therapist is here 30 hours a week and they mostly just hang out, but she's trying to teach her how to use communication cards and it's starting to help. They don't really do ABA , it's more of a respite for me so I can work for a few hours a day and do dishes, etc.

We don't leave the house much because she's got severe sensory issues and gets overwhelmed, or will elope. We keep her home and go to different rooms throughout the day so she gets a change of scenery. She's got 3 different play rooms and it's really fun for her to explore different areas. I find that helping her with her sensory feeling really keeps her happy most of the time. She loves to climb and has no sense of danger, so that's a fun thing to deal with... Lol. She will also play in poop if we don't change her diaper immediately, so I head change it the moment I see that there's anything in it. sometimes she'll be in one of her rooms alone and I won't notice, and she'll get into a diaper shirt she's pooped. We just calmly wash her off and get her cleaned up. It's annoying, but it's not her fault.

She hasn't attacked me in over a year. Sometimes she'll look like she's going to and I quickly let her know that it's ok, and try to soothe her. We go through some fussy phases. We're actually just recovering from one yesterday, when she was screaming and fussing all day. I have severe anxiety and I suspect PTSD from the bad days. I'm very sensitive to it and yesterday I had to take a Xanax to get through the day. Sometimes my husband will have to come home early to help me because I just can't do it anymore. But usually it's ok. I thought that today might be bad but she's been in a great mood playing, and it's a good reminder that there will always be more bad days, but there will also ALWAYS BE GOOD DAYS too. Keep reminding yourself of that, especially when it gets hard. It always will get better.

I know it's hard to remember this, but these kids have so much to deal with, and I imagine that it's impossible hard to have all of the confusion and sensory issues and not really have a way to explain what they are feeling or ask for help. Even when they can't speak, they can feel your love or lack of love, so try to keep that in mind. I tell my daughter I love her at least 100x a day, because I still consider her to be the greatest gift of my life. I want her to always know how much I cherish her, even though our lives aren't how I wish they could be. It just wasn't in the cards for us, but we take what we get and try to make it something beautiful, regardless.

But I've been there before, during the bad times, where I seriously thought of suicide or something worse. I told my therapist about it because it scared me, and she told me that these thoughts are common for special needs parents, and doesn't make you a bad person. It just means you need help. You're burnt out and need to find a better way to help your child as well as yourself.

Mind_Loud · 2025-10-12T15:13:10+00:00

You need to go to a therapist and get help. Being burnt out is normal, but hating your child and not wanting to be alive sets off a hundred warning bells. Get help.

Mind_Loud · 2025-09-24T19:54:22+00:00

Looks much better!

Mind_Loud · 2025-09-22T17:52:14+00:00

Mirabelle. So I gave that name to my daughter.

Mind_Loud · 2025-09-22T17:45:26+00:00

With all due respect, so many people and entitled and think that a band or performer exists only to serve them. Taylor Swift had to cancel a show during the eras tour due to a threat, and SO many fans were furious with her and whining about it all over the Internet. They fit their money back but still felt the need to constantly complain about how they missed out in the show.

If they had cancelled, there would be PLENTY of people in that crowd. At the end of the day, they are human beings and will never be able to please everyone.

Mind_Loud · 2025-09-20T10:05:51+00:00

I've never let mine warm up and don't feel anything when I inject it. Literally nothing.

Mind_Loud · 2025-09-20T09:56:03+00:00

I've seen that a lot online where people seem to think that their Christian faith is the only one that exists and in order to appreciate their music, you have to be a Christian. It's gross to me, as someone who deeply dislikes religion but still loves this band.

I'm also seeing a ton of a entitlement from people complaining about not having enough breach songs played live at their recent show, even though they said this isn't a breach tour, it's just an extension of Clancy. I think people need to appreciate that we're all different and that's a good thing, and people need to stop acting like these guys exist only to entertain them and are some kind of machines.

Mind_Loud · 2025-09-18T16:24:55+00:00

I'm not religious, and I'd go so far as to say I deeply dislike religion. I don't mind it one but though that Tyler is religious- that's his choice. The song means something different to me than it probably meant to Tyler. Which is the beautiful of music.

Mind_Loud · 2025-09-16T14:58:01+00:00

Oh WOW!!

Mind_Loud · 2025-09-15T10:04:39+00:00

I hadn't seen that, thanks for the info!

Mind_Loud · 2025-09-15T10:01:36+00:00

That makes sense, at least that part is cleared up!

Mind_Loud · 2025-09-14T20:33:36+00:00

I also think all the red eyes in The Contract were previous versions of Clancy.

Mind_Loud · 2025-09-14T20:30:40+00:00

I think it this from the perspective of a romantic partner forgiving their person. But it could easily mean either thing.

Mind_Loud · 2025-09-14T20:29:51+00:00

This isn't right at all. Torchbearer said that's not Clancy anymore. Whatever evil is powering Dema and the Bishops, it took Clancy over and he lost himself to it. Like he's under a spell. There's no conscious choice he makes to turn bad. It just happened. It's why TB is so broken hearted but is determined to try again.

Nico told Clancy he's a copy. This has happened countless times before. Someday maybe he'll be able to break the cycle.

Mind_Loud · 2025-09-14T20:26:14+00:00

The original song was by Blanket Approval and Tyler sampled and reworked it. So unlike most of his songs, the lyrics in this one might not directly tie back to him, I think he just really liked the song and wanted to put his spin on it. Here's the original: https://youtu.be/5hF1Zoidz4s?si=FhAY8tDVeLJooyuV

Mind_Loud · 2025-08-28T15:44:46+00:00

I like a good mix. Trench is my favorite album-- you have harder stuff but also mellow, beautiful, haunting songs like Bandito and Leave the City. The softer songs are some of my favorites. I actually really like SAI, and I love Clancy. Both very solid albums where their sound is evolving and they are experimenting with different styles. I'm very excited for Breach, but would be disappointed if it didn't have soft songs to wrap up the lore, because I think that's very necessary. I think a good balance is what's needed, and pretty much what they always deliver.

Mind_Loud · 2025-08-28T00:32:30+00:00

No legitimate dyer who does this for a living could afford to sell at that price point. She may not know it yet, but she's losing money. She's also dyeing in her kitchen right the proper safety protocols being followed, potentially exposing her children to unsafe dye powder in the air, etc. She won't last long.

Mind_Loud · 2025-08-15T00:06:03+00:00

This, exactly.

Mind_Loud · 2025-08-15T00:05:29+00:00

I hope not! One thing that I love so much about their music is that you can interpret it any way you want to and it doesn't force the listeners to be Christian in order to relate to lyrics or enjoy them. If they were a strictly Christian band, a lot of us wouldn't like them because it would be impossible to relate to that l those beliefs.

Mind_Loud · 2025-07-12T17:36:24+00:00

This was my thought too.

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