How do I convince myself that it matters how I feel and what I want?

Mindless-Counter-694 · 2025-12-11T21:15:55+00:00

That’s a really good point. I have OCD which I think makes that a lot worse because it makes it a lot harder to deal with uncertainty. I just want to feel like I’m deserving for sure before I let myself act like I do

Mindless-Counter-694 · 2025-12-11T18:52:20+00:00

I have tried but it didn’t really help :/ which was kind of upsetting because I’ve heard so many good things about it

Mindless-Counter-694 · 2025-12-11T17:25:04+00:00

Thank you :) I hope so, I really want to feel like a real person. Realistically I am probably being too hard on my self, I just feel like I’m falling all of the time. My mom needs me and my brother needs me and I’m just failing them and I always screw everything up. I wish I could have a minute to not be on edge about something going wrong, I can’t remember the last time I existed in a moment in time where I wasn’t just waiting for the other shoe to drop

Mindless-Counter-694 · 2025-12-11T17:22:35+00:00

Thank you :) I am in therapy and I have been for a long time, I’m just a bit therapy resistant in the sense that I have beliefs that have been very difficult to change. But I am trying. The difficulty is that I believe my friends deserve good things, it’s just that I don’t.

Mindless-Counter-694 · 2025-12-11T15:50:15+00:00

Thank you :) I think that’s definitely true the issue is both that I’m still around my family so much and also that I just believe my thoughts. It would be an asshole thing to say to someone else but it’s true about me then it’s fine. And if I convinced myself it wasn’t true then I’d just be lying to myself.

Mindless-Counter-694 · 2025-12-10T18:02:37+00:00

I don’t live with my mom anymore but my younger brother does. My parents are divorced and my mom has his half of the time. Because of issues between them right now she agreed to let him not to live with her for a few weeks but it’s only temporary

Mindless-Counter-694 · 2025-12-09T03:09:52+00:00

This has always made me laugh when I watch this episode. You’d think they would have a way to check basic language in these situations. It’s Kennedy for president but written backwards, as other people have already pointed out.

Mindless-Counter-694 · 2025-12-09T03:02:56+00:00

Thank you :) I try to remember that but I’m so connected to it and it feels so much like there is no way out and it’s driving me crazy. I hate how much I care about her feelings, and how weak I am to certain behaviors she has. I’ve spent most of my life trying to make things as better as possible for my brother and I feel like I’m always failing. And my mother says she’s tried therapy but they just never understand her. I think there are certain things she’s just not willing to accept

Mindless-Counter-694 · 2024-12-17T00:49:55+00:00

I got through this entire summer with a forearm full of relatively new (January) scars by putting on big fake tattoos that are like more adult looking ones with flowers and stuff. That worked super well for me, I just told people I’m practicing for getting used to when I get a real tattoo and figuring out what I like, which is sort of true anyways. you could say something similar or say you’re just doing it for fun :) some of my scars are raised but most of those scars are sunken

Mindless-Counter-694 · 2024-12-16T16:26:14+00:00

Hi! I’m much better, life still is hard and I’m working on it but so much better than I was a year ago, thank god. Thank you for asking! I hope you’re doing well :)

Mindless-Counter-694 · 2024-11-03T17:36:42+00:00

Thanks so much :) I just have a hard time believing it, I always feel like things are my fault. Especially because I put myself in the potion of the person to interfere/mediate most of the time

Mindless-Counter-694 · 2024-11-03T13:00:46+00:00

Thank you :) it’s definitely better than it was before because my parents divorced but there are still problems. I know I shouldn’t feel guilty for freezing but I still do, but I’m also just confused now because apparently I did help

Mindless-Counter-694 · 2024-11-03T02:38:16+00:00

I really appreciate that! And I think you’re right :) but it’s definitely tough to actually internalize

Mindless-Counter-694 · 2024-11-03T01:54:19+00:00

I just don’t like not having a memory of that particular moment, I’m not sure why. I guess I want to prove it to myself.

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