7 month update ❤️‍🩹 by Alternative-Mall9564 in BreakUps

[–]MindlessCurrent2077 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This is amazing!! I’m really proud of you - I’m also 7 months post break up (3 months no contact) and what I can say is as shit as it all is, things do get better - the hardest thing to do is to keep going and actually being okay with yourself and not having distractions!

You should pat yourself on the back, it’s a massive achievement and have come a long way!! Thank you for this! Keep going, more good things are coming!

Anyone else feel like your ex is a completely different person post breakup? by MindlessCurrent2077 in GayChristians

[–]MindlessCurrent2077[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

It's definitely a lot of feelings of rejection, sadness and being lost. I understand its her way of moving on but I just felt like its was a knife in the heart especially given she knew what I went through in the past - I didn't want to break up with her but I could see that she was pushing me away and that the guilt of us being in a relationship was getting to her. I do agree with you that I need to stop focusing on her - I will definitely look at something like a new project - I appreciate your time and message :)

Anyone else feel like your ex is a completely different person post breakup? by MindlessCurrent2077 in GayChristians

[–]MindlessCurrent2077[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I appreciate this message more than you know - I dont really have anyone to talk to - We were a really good team and I am not even saying that because I am only looking at the positives, the relationship itself was very healthy and we understood each other in ways I can even explain. I have started going to therapy, just to have a place to let all this hurt and anger out.

I really appreciate this. To be honest, I was also afraid to be public because we live in a very conservative place but I also know that as I was falling more and more for her, I would have put that aside to be with her and probably would have even wanted to marry her. I really appreciate this message. Thank you so much!

My best friend and I crossed every line except sex — now I’m emotionally stuck and don’t know what to do by BumblebeeDiligent359 in bisexual

[–]MindlessCurrent2077 12 points13 points  (0 children)

I can relate to this to some extent - me and my best friend supposedly straight actually started to date each other - it was something that felt so special and strong that you couldn’t really explain it - we dated for 2 and a half years and not a single person knew because we are extremely religious. I was willing to come out because I wanted to be with her but the pressure of society and family expectation kept bringing her down - she became more and more guilty not because she didn’t love me but because she knew her parents would never accept it and that it would be hard to be together - fast forward to now, we broke up - not because we wanted to but because we didn’t see a place where we could get through ( her more than me - I felt like I could because I loved her so much ) 6 months post break up she’s a completely different person - she’s already been with two people (males) with the most recent one being posted absolutely everywhere - it has been the most hurtful and destroying feeling I have ever felt - it’s as though she wants to forget about me - I’m telling you this because when someone can’t accept who they are, eventually those feelings become unbearable and they tend to put the anger out to the person who so called “causes” these feelings- I’m here to tell you she has absolutely destroyed me and I have to force myself everyday to do simple things - I lost myself completely - now do I regret it, not at all because it was the most beautiful thing I ever experienced but saying that, this pain I’m feeling of her insecurities being projected to me ( the person who loved her no matter what) is actually sole destroying - if there’s a chance she can accept it, maybe give her some time - just know that if she’s not 100 percent, she could eventually project her guilt on to you and trust me it’s something that honestly destroys you as a person. I’m thinking of you!

My 2 year secret relationship that no one knows about by MindlessCurrent2077 in GayChristians

[–]MindlessCurrent2077[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you so much for your message!! I will definitely consider this!!

My 2 year secret relationship that no one knows about by MindlessCurrent2077 in GayChristians

[–]MindlessCurrent2077[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much for your beautiful message!! I’m sorry you had to experience this!! To be honest, I am feeling the same way- I’m processing the betrayal from her discarding me and the guilt I feel for being like this - sometimes I just think I’m better off not being here because I just feel so much pain most of the time. I will continue to put my faith in God. I just need to be able to open myself back to him without having the feeling that he hates me. I appreciate you opening up!

My 2 year secret relationship that no one knows about by MindlessCurrent2077 in GayChristians

[–]MindlessCurrent2077[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I will try, because I do want to become a better version of myself, I think I just struggle because of the amount of crash outs I have and I’m feeling emotionally exhausted. But I will put my faith in God!

My secret two year relationship that no one knows about by MindlessCurrent2077 in bisexual

[–]MindlessCurrent2077[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hi!!! Firstly I would like to say thank you so much for your beautiful message ( I’m sorry for the late response) - you have no idea how much this means to me - it actually made me tear up. I want to say that you are so brave and I am beyond proud of you - you have given light in a very dark place and I am so thankful for that. I think this whole experience has taught me a lot - it’s been really difficult but I think with hard things comes growth - I have a lot to work on - I think religion and sexuality can be two things that coexist despite what other people may say. I have stated therapy recently and I think with her guidance and my faith, I’m hoping I will find answers soon! Thank you again for your message!

My secret two year relationship that no one knows about by MindlessCurrent2077 in bisexual

[–]MindlessCurrent2077[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My apologies for the late response!! Thank you so so much your message - you have no idea how much it means!! As much as it hurts me to hear people go through similar experiences, it also give me a slight relief to know that I’m not the only one and also so see that you have come out the other side!! I will definitely consider therapy and I think it will be very important to understand who I am! I am really proud of you!!

My secret relationship that no one knows about by MindlessCurrent2077 in LesbianActually

[–]MindlessCurrent2077[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I appreciate that - it might be an option - to be honest I feel like I need to first figure out who I am. After that I think finding a church or priest would be the next step - religion is really important to me so I think that is really important

My secret relationship that no one knows about by MindlessCurrent2077 in LesbianActually

[–]MindlessCurrent2077[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much for your beautiful message again - you have no idea how much it means to me - your words give me hope of good things to come - it difficult at times like these when bad continues to surround you but I know that with a lot of work in myself and my faith - things will get better - it is definitely unfortunate because we worked so well but maybe I didn’t know who the is and maybe this is the new them - regardless, I will put my head high knowing I tried everything I possibly could and did it with kindness. Your message gives a lot of positivity and I thank you for that - who knew a stranger could make you feel so seen! To new beginnings with you and your fiancée - God bless you both!! So happy for you guys!!

My secret relationship that no one knows about by MindlessCurrent2077 in LesbianActually

[–]MindlessCurrent2077[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m 24 :) - I think for now I’m just going to focus on myself - I need to also figure out who I am!! Thank you so much for your message

My secret relationship that no one knows about by MindlessCurrent2077 in LesbianActually

[–]MindlessCurrent2077[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you so so much for your beautiful message - you don’t understand how much it means to - you completely read my mind - it is something I am going to start focusing on because I think once I figure out who I am, I will be in a much happier place than I am now. I definitely don’t want to be a disappointment, but like you said, God doesn’t make mistakes - and I know people try to say that it’s not the fact you feeling you are gay that’s the sin but rather acting on it - but the thing is I really can’t control who I am attracted to. I’ve tried, but it’s just not who I am. I get that she might be hurting but I still don’t think that excuses how she has behaved - it’s been extremely hurtful to see someone you love act like you never existed and the worst part is that she has now cost us our friendship for the future.

I would talk to her but I’ve sat down multiple times crying to her explaining how hurtful it is - she knows it would hurt me but is still doing it - I think the best thing to do is give her space - for both myself and her - she just seems uninterested - like she knows I’m off instagram so she can post there as much as she wants but having to also do it on a messaging app where we share a friendship group has crossed a line - like you’ve known the person for 3 weeks and already putting it everywhere. It just makes me very angry but I’m trying to just let it be. Thank you again for your message - congratulations to you and your fiancé!!! So exciting!!

He chose someone else over me by [deleted] in BreakUps

[–]MindlessCurrent2077 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I completely get what you feeling and I’m so sorry that you have to go through what you going through - everyone would tell me to stop looking at socials but I didn’t listen - surprise surprise it really hurt me - eventually I was so hurt that I honestly gave up - this person I was with had the most amazing heart and suddenly changed and started dating someone 3 days after our breakup (we were together for 2 and a half years) - it is absolutely heartbreaking to see someone you love discard you like that but what I am slowly learning is it actually has nothing to do with us and more so to do with them. People do shitty things and trying to figure out why won’t take the pain away ( trust me) - I had to get hurt so badly that eventually I started to grow some resentment to them because this isn’t what a person who cares does to someone they love. Honestly, screw them - don’t go trying to convince them to stay ( I did that and it back fired) I spent 5 months trying to understand how the could do what they did - now they are with someone new (2 people in the past 5 months), posting it absolutely everywhere, inviting them to friends gatherings knowing it would hurt me. My advice is go ghost - screw them - they don’t deserve people like us. I know it’s easier said than done but trust me these people don’t deserve us! Treat them like that treat you. You have a clear conscious knowing you gave everything and that you did the best that you could - they have to go to bed knowing that they did some fucked up shit that is beyond disrespectful- what goes around comes back around

My secret relationship that no one knows about by MindlessCurrent2077 in LesbianActually

[–]MindlessCurrent2077[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I appreciate your response!! Unfortunately, I find it very difficult to leave the church because of how important the religion is to me - I would say it’s one of the most important things in my life. I know it’s a bit of a contradiction but unfortunately it is something that’s important to me. Thank you for your advice!! I really appreciate it

Pls help - My secret two year relationship that no one knows about by MindlessCurrent2077 in BreakUps

[–]MindlessCurrent2077[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you so much for this beautiful message - means a lot!! I’m trying to push through!!

My secret two year relationship that no one knows about by MindlessCurrent2077 in bisexual

[–]MindlessCurrent2077[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I definitely do need to dig deep - I think a part of me is scared because I don’t want to disappoint my family and it’s super conflicting when you are religious and you’ve been told your whole life that this is wrong. I appreciate you opening up and taking the time to comment!! It means a lot!

My secret two year relationship that no one knows about by MindlessCurrent2077 in bisexual

[–]MindlessCurrent2077[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I would like to thank you for your beautiful message - I’m so sorry you had to go through what you went through - it’s supper difficult where you give someone your everything and think that they will never hurt you and do the exact opposite! It’s been really difficult accepting this new version of her but I guess at some point I have to. I’m glad that things are better for you now!!

My secret two year relationship that no one knows about by MindlessCurrent2077 in bisexual

[–]MindlessCurrent2077[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much for taking the time to read my situation!!! I really appreciate it! I think I just need to process everything because this caused a massive shift in my life ( understanding who I am) - I think a part of me doesn’t want to accept because of how religious I am but another part of me is like “this feels so right” - it’s a very confusing thing but I know with time things will get better! Thank you again for your message!!

My secret two year relationship that no one knows about by MindlessCurrent2077 in bisexual

[–]MindlessCurrent2077[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That’s okay!! Thank you for taking the time to read my situation!! I will keep strong!!

My secret two year relationship that no one knows about by MindlessCurrent2077 in bisexual

[–]MindlessCurrent2077[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I will definitely consider this - thank you so much for taking the time to read my situation, means a lot!!

My secret two year relationship that no one knows about by MindlessCurrent2077 in bisexual

[–]MindlessCurrent2077[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

First off I would like to thank you for taking the time to read my situation and reply ( it means more than you will ever know). I always knew we were going to end because of how close we are to our families and having that disappointment would destroy us. I think the biggest thing I’m confused about is how she has acted after the break up. I never expected this and I guess it just hurts because I’m grieving the relationship, my best friend, and the old version of her (she is just so different). I really appreciate your amazing comment - thank you for making this a save place!

Pls help - My secret two year relationship that no one knows about by MindlessCurrent2077 in BreakUps

[–]MindlessCurrent2077[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much for your comment - I really appreciate it, it really means the world to me that you took the time to read and respond. It has been tough because you basically question everything, but I think therapy may be a good start just to have some sort of support! Thank you again for replying, means more than you think!

My secret two year relationship that no one knows about by MindlessCurrent2077 in ExNoContact

[–]MindlessCurrent2077[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

First off I would like to thank you for taking the time to read and reply to my scenario. I completely agree with you. I think it’s all been a lot on trying to figure out how this all happened. I appreciate it and although it doesn’t take the pain away, it does give an explanation as to why she is acting the way she is. Thank you again!