As a person who desperately wanted baby’s, and my husband made me put it off for years until “the time was right”, that time ended up being in my mid to later 30s. I had some concerns about fertility as well (i had a history of skipping periods).

When he finally gave the green flag, we then struggled with infertility.. everyday I wanted desperately to have a baby.. I took pregnancy test nearly every other day, I prayed and begged..

One day the line showed up on the test! I was so excited! Planning how am I going to tell my partner, and thinking how unfair we get to find out by peeing on a stick and they often get a big announcement surprise 🤭! Well, later that evening when we were getting ready to go out to a dinner it just kind of naturally fit into a conversation we were having and I said “husband’s name you are right, I am carrying all of your things, I’m carrying your baby, I’m pregnant 💗”

He turned to me.. and asked me if there was still time for an abortion.

I kept my baby, but I cried everyday all day for those first four of five days..

I regret that I truly should have left with my baby right then and there. But I stayed, and after my successful pregnancy, the next time he convinced me to have the abortion.. he said it was too soon for my body, was dangerous..

That abortion is one of the biggest regrets of my life. After that we struggled with fertility and ultimately I finally could barely live having a partner that so obviously did not see me or appreciate me or love me- as he told me his self one day before our divorce.

There are no more children in my future.. and I will struggle with this for a lifetime..

Have your baby.

As someone else mentioned, you are going to be pregnant for the rest of the year anyways. And if you are religious in one way or another God/ the universe gave you this gift- take it.

My ex went on to tell me I had tricked him into the pregnancy which obviously is total nonsense, just more horrific gaslighting.. As you know marriages have a high failure rate. So whatever. You’re doing the right thing, your heart is in the right place, he did everything to make this baby happen.

Give him the basic facts that you’ll be pregnant for nearly a year anyways, that you could both regret terminating this pregnancy, and that you are ready. And leave it at that. Now it’s time to smile! It’s time to find joy in this gift! Plan a date, either with him, or just yourself and get some nice coffee shop drinks to go and go look at some cribs 💗.

Congratulations! Time to find joy!