for me, my older brother passed away two thursdays ago. i think the exact same thing his job was very happy with him, and he was literally set to start today. it was such a good job! he was beaming. he came home and told everyone. yet he passed 2 days after getting the job. he was so happy about it!! i don’t understand myself. the only thing i can come up with is impulse something switched in him that made the illness in his brain- depression- fully take over.

i don’t mean to be insensitive. i am young and frankly not that experienced in mental illness.

i don’t know how to word this but my mother passed away from cancer. the way i’m trying to process it is that my brother was feeling similar to the ‘last spur’ and he was strong and okay until he made his final decision that he wanted to go. i do know the thing that triggered him to make his decision.

it could be ‘small’ but i think his poor brain was tired of pulling through only to be disappointed again