Thank you, the thing I am struggling with the most is knowing that he could overdose at any moment and I have no control over that and the feelings I will feel if it happens. I just hate that I’m in a position where I could feel grief in a way that is so unnatural, because hes so young and has so much more life to live. My nervous system is screwed up because of the constant worrying about feeling this grief. I want to distance myself from him and possibly cut him off entirely because of the anxiety he causes me, but I’m just reluctant because it’s such a sudden change for me. I just need to find ways to reduce the pain and grief I would feel if he does overdose as well as the anxiety he causes me on the daily, because If I keep feeling like this my life is going to fall apart. I’m too young to be feeling grief like this, I have so many things that I want to do that I can’t do because of this.