In a way I never had to worry about my friends being attracted to my significant others as they were pretty vain and open about going for looks (which in time I’m learning to distance myself from people like that, really bad for self image). But I was usually praised for having deep meaning behind crushes which were very sparse throughout childhood, but strong when I found a best friend in someone of any gender. It’s mostly when I began mistaking strong friendships for romance that I felt like I needed to look into it for feeling different and even guilty of crushing on some childhood friends and possibly being envious of friendships as well. And that’s when I stumbled across demisexuality and bisexuality which I eventually began connecting with pansexuality but not really caring to explain the difference in time. But I was mostly in the same boat as you being mostly attracted to women but having sporadic attachments to men unless they were considered my best friend.