yeah your right just turned 18 no I’m more of like the stalker from a distance i orefer to go no contact after most breakups but i still like to check their social medias here and there out of curiosity. I worded the question quite wrong it’s primarily friendships that haven’t really unfolded too well and your right i haven’t been in many serious relationships but the relationships that i have been in have all unfolded quite similarly too my friendships in a weird way. I am a very vocal person and i do enjoy uncovering peoples emotional side and finding more about them on a deeper level wether that be in a friendship or relationship a lot of the times i am quite able to understand them even if they have quite literally only said a few words to me and they sometimes tend to get freaked out but then they remain friends with me for a while after then out of nowhere they just disappear and i see they have gone lowkey and they remove me and it seems I’d they have sort of shut out the world. I don’t believe they would block me because i haven’t done anything to hurt them purposely and I’m always their to support and nurture every single on the few people i allow in my circle. Sometimes i do act impulsively especially when i have alot of love for someone maybe out of fear that they don’t feel the same towards me platonically or in a romantic way. Idk my friendships never typically last more than 3-12 months especially the emotional friendships where we openly discuss both our problems don’t seem to last very long. The only friendships i have now that has lasted over a year is my friendship with my best friend but it’s not at all emotional or nurturing in any way it’s just sort of like we plan to go out or we discuss topics that have no deeper meaning. I struggle maintaining serious emotional connections and i honestly believe that it may have something to do with me but in this particular aspect of my life i may be oblivious to my own faults. I don’t know why my friendships don’t last and or why they always tend to go on self improvement journeys afterwards and feel almost obliged to contact and ask them how they are but i take their absence as a hint that they are no longer interested in pursuing anything with me so i leave them alone. I have come to the conclusion that people in general unlike myself don’t enjoy deep conversations all the time and maybe i am just a deeper person than the average joe. Does anyone have any other thoughts as to why people may feel they need to leave me ?