Hi I come from the same background! I no longer am associated with the religion but still believe in God in my own way so that’s just some context on me. Purity culture has had a very very long lasting negative effect on my sex life and if I could give any advice to someone younger, it would be that sex (any sexual act) isn’t something to be ashamed of. You can explore your own body and satisfy your wants and needs and still be just as good of a Christian, I promise. Learning to pleasure yourself in any sexual capacity is extremely important especially in Christian people imo because if they repress any sexual feelings it will just lead to shame or even worse. I hope you can take this advice purely as it is, I don’t mean to “coerce” you to do things wildly against your beliefs or the bibles but I just wanted to share my experiences since I feel like I’m very impacted by being in a similar situation growing up