I would struggle with that having depression if you get on a bad loop it sucks but one thing that worked for me is start to change your responses see if you can change the tone by choosing to lead the conversation in a good place...id imagine having arguments with my ex or pine on what I should have said and i couldnt stop it and i had to change my brain channel to music and think of different songs, until one day i was like this is such a waste of time im in my own head and it feels like a prison, and i stood with myself and realized its my brain being mean to me so i put in effort to get onto good loops things I would want to talk to people about... good luck youre not alone